This is not a club I want to join, but here I am. I went to see my GP with vague symptoms of itching and feeling my legs didn't work. Blood tests diagnosed iron deficient anaemia, fast track referral to find out why, gastroscopy and colonoscopy two weeks later, Endoscopist mentioned an area of concern in my gullet. Here I am now, starting chemo next week then later in the year horrific surgery. I wake each morning in tears thinking if this op, it's terrifying me. I'm kind of feeling this is my last week of life as I've known it. I've got no symptoms, esting and swallowing are no problem and I just feel devastated for myself and for my family. My daughter had cervical cancer 13 years ago, the treatment wrecked her health, but thank God she's still alive.
It's in my head all the time, everything I do, there's this voice in my head going I've got cancer..... how do you shut it up? Sorry I'm being really pathetic but I jyst cant get my head round this.
Hi Maureen, sorry to hear youve been feeling poorly . I got out of hospital last week Thursday I was in intensive care for 7 days as I got pneumonia, no pain from op just a bit where drains were b
t pain was relief was really good so probably why I had no pain. I was sipping water couple of days after , made sure I was getting in that chair and pushed myself to walk length of the ward 3 of th days in intensive care and it paid off , had some ice cream was a god send for the mouth lol got on the ward day 8 was having a coffee or tea , then protein shakes best ones were chocolate and banna. And I was having soups aswel . Home by day 11 sleeping when im tired some days better than others but having soups, ice cream , coffee. Tea, plenty of water , I take pain relief as needed but tobe honest ive stiffened up as im healing but I feel good. Yestaday I mashed down carrots and broccoli with gravy took my time had no trouble there either. Still cough when I take a deep breath but sill part of chest infection I spose . I hope you get through the rough parts of the chemo bless you stick in there , all my love tony ️
Course you can 
Maureen you got this x one day at a time , one hour if need be , you are honestly gona smash this ...
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all the love from your family the strength you have in your self , we've all got you on here aswel . We are all gona whinge but your positivity will kick negativitys butt every time x were all warr
rs on here
Wel done , all the best with your recovery
