My husband is Stage 4 and is just not well, lots of pain and discomfort. His diagnosis is gastro oesophageal junction cancer. It’s now spread to a few places including the liver.
Cancer has completely robbed him from us, his image, his personality, his life. I can’t believe how cruel life can really be.
I am petrified of the inevitable and hearing results from scans and spend every single day just hoping to wake up and it all just be 1 big nasty nightmare.
But its not, it’s real and its absolutely killing me.
My mum has now been diagnosed with a different cancer but is also stage 4. I just want to get off the roller coaster but it won’t stop 
Hi BelleT
I am so sorry to hear of your husbands cancer and that he is so unwell with it. I hope that his team is giving him support in managing the pain and discomfort.
I am also sorry to hear of your Mum's diagnosis. I can understand that it feels much like a roller coaster at the moment. it is very understandable that you are struggling at the moment.
I wonder if talking things through would help. We do have the Support Line available from 8am-8pm daily and sometimes it can help to talk to someone not directly connected to you. They would also be able to have a look and see if there is any support in your local area that may help.
Through my own cancer I found that it was hard on those around me and I understand that it must feel like life if pretty cruel at the moment.
We are here if you need us and if there is anything we can do to help, please do ask.
Jane
