Sad update

Oh Angela…it steals so much, but it doesn’t steal who we are. I can empathise with so much of what you have written. It has stolen my peace of mind, my mobility, my normality, my mental health, but it hasn’t stolen me, and it never will. When I die, it dies, so it never wins. 

I acknowledge all I’ve lost-heck, I can’t even go to the toilet like a normal person! I have ptsd, I have life changing body issues, I am literally housebound, BUT, it hasn’t won. And it never will. 

It’s good to acknowledge what we’ve lost, but also we need to focus on what we’ve achieved. It may have taken the life you had but it hasn’t taken your life. It’s just different, as it is for me. keep smiling Angela, and keep moving forward.

Sarah xx

Hea Angela, 

I am absolutely feeling it today as well! Some days are so hard aren’t they! I keep saying I need to give myself a shake however I’m not managing to just now. 

We are all riding the storm, and sometimes it makes us tired however storms get tired too 

Lots of love to you and anyone else needing it today 

Jen 

xxx

Thanks for your reply Sarah..it's just a bad day and I absolutely hate posting bad stuff when I'm trying to  cheer on other survivors of this horrible disease..I just have a feeling mines not gone! Iv been having crampy pains(brand new) but it's where the cancer was/is xx Angela

Hey Jen..I'm so f***ked up rite now and I Wana be there to help people but today I'm screaming for help myself!. I don't like letting people dwn but I'm so down xxx

Don’t worry…we all have bad days. You are always a big supporter of everyone else, but we cannot be amazingly positive all the time. You are an incredible support for all the ladies here, and you’ve done SO well. Be proud of yourself for what you’ve done and continue to do.

I hope your day is better tomorrow. Our car died completely yesterday, so we have the delights of having to get it scrapped and trying to find some money for another one! I felt rubbish last night, but today I’m thinking more positively about how we can sort this and what options we have. And it’s amazing how much things can turn around.

Sarah xx

Yep I am exactly the same. I’ve hardly moved all day, however we must remember today is only one day. And we take things one day at a time. 

My new treatment has knocked me for 6. I’ve been in and out doctors and the hospital more after it than I was throughout my whole plan last time. Starting to wonder if I can tolerate it, and if not… what then.

I get you want to help others, however sometimes we need to be selfish and help ourselves first in order to help others. 

Are you managing to sleep ok? I always feel worse after a bad sleep 

Jen 

xxx

You're an inspiration to many of us Sarah..I know il feel better tomorrow coz I have plans  but it's so good to have this space to air all our worries and fears ...tysvm Sarah xx

Good to see you Jen! This is all so hard and you can’t just give yourself a shake and get out of how you feel all the time.  I love what you say about storms getting tired…they do. Big hugs.

Sarah xx

I'm on sleeping pills so I always get a decent amount of sleep but it's the fatigue that gets me..I have great plans to do stuff then I'm exhausted just thinkin bout them xxxx

I’ve been in hibernation feeling hellish Sarah! It’s been tough cycle however I’m hoping it gets easier. Thank you for your kind words, they always hit the spot! 

We are all legends and it’s ok to have a wobble, and this group of ladies is the best to wobble at