Feel so alone

LJ86 I replied on another thread to you. But everyone on here will tell you the waiting is the worst. I actually had to come out of work as I couldn't concentrate or stop crying so I can totally sympathize with you. The waiting is a hard game to play but once you've got a diagnosis etc you will get a final planning scan and free tattoos lol it takes about 3 weeks after that to begin treatment. It does seem like a long time but you will get through it.

Stay strong 

Angela xx

Thank you. I did see your other post I really appreciate your words and support. I'm still working or trying to but I've literally got nothing done I just can't focus on it  I keep researching treatments which I know at the moment is pointless as I have no clue what my options will be. I'm just struggling to come to terms with it all. I do have people around me but I feel closer to woman I've never met who've gone or are going through this. 

Oh I am intrigued though, free tattoos? Lol what's this 

Hi LJ86 

I also researched before diagnosis. But I was wrongly convinced mine would be early stage and I'd get a hysterectomy and be done with it. My stage is 2b which means it spread a bit outside the cervix and attached to tissues so surgery was out of the question . Once I was diagnosed the told me about my treatment options and I researched the chemo radiation which is radiotherapy 5 days a week with a weekly chemo then internal radio(brachytherapy) Having all the relevant info realy helped me. Made me feel more in control. I had a biopsy taken then scans and that's where they got my final diagnosis. It is a long wait and I can only advise try to keep occupied. I was like you for bout 2 weeks after diagnosis. I couldn't even speak to my family without breaking down but apart from my blip earlier in the week iv been mostly positive. This forum will help keep you sane until treatment begins.

Sending positive vibes .

Angela xx

Oh and the tattoos are 3 small dots tattooed onto your skin to pinpoint where they need to concentrate the radiotherapy beams. Not painful and hardly noticeable. #war wounds lol 

Angela xx

Oh hun that's awful. To be told one thing then another I can't imagine. Treatment sounds invasion. Sounds like you've been through a hell of a lot. So sorry you have. Sounds like you have done and are doing amazingly well. When I was first diagnosed they said surgery when he said hysterectomy it destroyed me. Though I felt thankful that they said curable to think I can't have children is soul destroying. Just feels so unfair. But last call mentioned tissue so I'm presuming it's stage 2 I thought the best scenario was bad enough I just feel like I can't cope 

Oh lol not what I was expecting. So nice that you can make light of this xx

Hi LJ86 

I only assumed it would be early stage 1..nobody told me that so I researched stage 1 only..never thinking in a million years it would be any different. But honestly the treatments not so bad and also you will hear many funny stories in here. We have to be positive because we are warriors!! 

Best wishes xx

Warriors indeed. 

Sorry I read wrong thought that you had been told. I get that completely I just assumed early stage but since then I've just thought the worse x 

Hey you will think like that for a while but I promise once you get your diagnosis and treatment plan you will be full of positivity! 

Xx

I hope so. Thank you so much xx