Treatment finished!

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Hello,

I am feeling very emotional today as I've had my last treatment. Its been a rollercoaster but I'm so proud of myself that I've managed to pull through 3 months of various treatments and love that my body was strong enough to cope well.

I've had a radical hysterectomy, chemo/radiotherapy for 5 weeks and 3 sessions of brachytherapy. I am 36 and honestly the main thing pulling me through  all this was my 2.5yr old son.

I now enter the next stage where I battle my fear of recurrence. Any tips? I am choosing to believe that's it for me and I am cancer free but realistically I know only time will tell.

It all feels a bit surreal returning to normality.

  • Congratulations !   It’s been a long road for u., longer than mine but we’ll done for getting through it !

    I too just got through surgery pre Xmas and have just been declared NAD.  I’m single and it was hard. 

    The road still stretches infront for us but it’s clearer now and fingers crossed it stays that way for us both.  

    And I know what u mean when u say now it’s done it feels kind of odd . Hard to explain unless u have been through it.

    be proud of us ! 

    and best wishes to everyone else in the group x 

  • Oh wow   that’s fantastic news for you-well done! It’s a huge thing to get through so much, and a big deal. I can understand the emotional feelings around what you’ve been through, but I hope you can return to a sense of normality now and move on now.

    To be honest I don’t think in my experience you can ever rid yourself of the fear of recurrence, because having had that happen, I don’t believe the fear ever truly goes. I think from my point of view that you need to try to keep it at the back of your mind, and not the forefront. Never let it destroy the “now” and never let it dominate your thoughts. Otherwise you are not truly living. 

    I’ve had a recurrence and it is unbelievably frightening to go through that, but I focus on the fact that it was dealt with, and my cancer successfully removed. That has to be enough for me, and I enjoy the life I’m able to enjoy. I hope you can find that you’re able to do that too.

    Sarah xx


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  • Always wise words Sarah.  Thank u for helping.  Allison 

  • Thank you. 

    I am more determined than ever to be a better version of myself and be present for my son and thankful for every day I have.

    If this experiance has taught me anything, it's that I'm stronger than I ever thought I was.

  • Congratulations to you too.

    It's a huge feeling to be declared NED and I wish you all the best for the future. Your absolutely right that it's difficult to understand unless you've been through it.

  • I’m so glad to read you have a NED result Allison-that’s just such good news. It’s not an easy path to tread, but it’s a very good start. It’s such a strange thing when everything is confirmed as done, we can feel cast adrift sometimes. But if you need help, I would say reach out for it. 

    Sarah xx


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  • Hi Allison. So happy you got good results after all the uncertainty and bumps in the road before surgery.  How are you doing now? Xx

  • Awww congratulations you did it! Well done and hope you’re feeling well. I’ve just finished week two , got 3 to go then brachytherapy. How was the brachytherapy for you I’m feeling very anxious xxx

  • Hello, brachy was alright for me. Mine was post surgical brachy which I think may be a little different if you haven't had surgery.

    Mine was 8 mins with a kind of dilator in me and that's it. They fit the dilator very snugly and since I've had 2 surges down below it wasn't particularly comfortable when going in but was fine once in place. 

    There was no bleeding or lasting pain for me.

  • Thank you for replying! I have 2 overnight stays , anesthetic to insert then they’ll wake me up while it does its job! So so happy for you I wish you all the luck in the world xxx