Feeling strangely calm after diagnosis

I was diagnosed last Friday with oestrogen and pregesterone positive breast cancer no her

It probably seems strange to say it but since diagnosis a total calm has comer me I was really freaking out on my three week wait for results to the point I was nearly having panic attacks but now I know i feel back in control ive had a few teary moments and a few angry why me moments but im doing ok 

It helps that my surgeon is the same one I had my for total duct extraction operation last year, hes really nice and takes time to explain everything in an understandable way im not good with anything medical and this has really helped to calm my nerves with upcoming appointments and surgery 

Next step is an mri (which im not looking forward to )

Im just going to take one day at a time and one appointment at a time and try not to think too far ahead 

Sending love to everybody ️