Hello lovely people

Hi!! I'm new to this but I saw your story, and im sure youre just as strong as they say you are.  I get trying to be positive, ive always been like that and i hope my own positivity can spread to you. The one thing im thankful for today is my grandma stay strong, you got this. Dont let your mind get to you. It seems cloudy right now but things will get better.

Morning i was disgnosed 6th July with stage 2 ILC my mass is 4cm by 4cm, im not due my op until next week and was told i wont know treatmemt until 2 weeks later and have to wait 8 - 12 weeks before i can start, im the same some days im fine, other days i get a pain somewhere else and think has it spread, im assuming its natural to go through all these emotions, its not an easy time for you and you need to be kind to yourself.  Mental Health is just as importand, take care, here if you need to chat/rant whatever you need

Bless you Mighty duck It's like being in a parallel world. Everyone is carrying on as normal but our world seems to come to a halt. It would just be nice to have an end date to look forward to. I feel like I'm about to go into lockdown again. The hardest part is seeing my daughter so worried about me. 

I wish you well throughout your journey. x

Your right its like being in another dimension, we were meant to be moving to Spain but thats now on hold for how long "who knows" i wish you all the best too on your journey, keep in touch

Hi, I joined the forum today. I've got my operation later this month. I believe I'm having the same procedure as you. I have a 3x3 growth in my right breast, that just felt like breast tissue. Showed up on my first mammogram, after my 50th birthday. It's slow growing, which they told me was good. I came off HRT and had coil removed next day, as it's hormone fed. I am horrified it could have been there for ages, perhaps before hrt and then got bigger, due to hrt. I was on hrt for 2 years. I will have to wait for the biopsy on the growth to confirm the stage, although they think it's stage 1 despite the size. I won't know the number of lymph glands removed until the day of my operation.  I feel much like you, swaying between terror and accepting this is my new normal for however long it takes to get rid of it. I am sick of people saying "it's only stage 1" like it's nothing. I won't know for sure until weeks from now. I'm scared and worried. I also suffer from anxiety, so my sleeping is awful, fitful dreams too etc. I'm outwardly positive, but feel like I'm trying to make other people feel comfortable. Waiting is excruciating when your mind races with worry, I empathise with you there. I've only just gone through the enormous info pack I was given too, which had helpful stuff. I'm going to a group meeting later this week, so hope that helps. It is comforting to know so many women get through this, and worse stages of cancer. I feel like I've just got random questions about practical things to chat about. I hope you have some groups near you? It's nice not to feel alone. Take care xx

Hi Verdite

Have you tried writing a journal. I started one the day of my diagnosis and it has helped me to get all my thoughts down on paper. I send you many positive thoughts and trust you get through with your inner strength.  I think women are amazingly strong and we constantly surprise ourselves at how much we can get through. x