Help - yy head is in turmoil !

Hi there, thank you for your post. Welcome to the forum.

It really sounds as you've been through the mill these past weeks! Such rotten luck to receive your diagnosis on Christmas Eve. Yet such great news to know that your prognosis is much better than was first thought.

Next week makes a year since my diagnosis.  

I definitely found the waiting and testing time to be the most difficult. I just wanted the treatment to begin, right now! 

I imagine it must make it even more challenging to be given a treatment start date and then have that postponed. 

Your team sound like they're doing a thorough job with ensuring you're having the right treatment. I really do hope that you are able to begin soon.

In the meantime, I'd try to be gentle with yourself, if you can,  do the things you know usually have a soothing effect and lean on people in your life and in these forums.

There's no two ways about it. A cancer diagnosis is shocking and scary. We feel it's too much to bear. Yet somehow, we do. We do the treatment. We keep going to bed each night and waking up again each morning and the world keeps turning.  Sooner than we know, our treatment has begun and ended and we're out the other side.

I send you all the positivity I can.

Much hugs, Shaka

Gosh what a rollercoaster, no wonder your emotions are all over the place.  I had a couple of treatments delayed when I was going through chemo and herception and I was unreasonably annoyed, so I can completely empathise. I guess you have to try and take the positive in that chemo is a horrid drug and can do nasty things (which is what it's designed to do) so they need to ensure you are fit and healthly enough to have it.  Best wishes for Friday 

Hi ChelleD 

My story was different but I can, in part at least, understand how you feel. I was scheduled for surgery which was cancelled following more stuff coming up on MRI which needed to be tested. Told wrong info following this by a BCN about the size of my tumour which really scared me. BCN said I would need a mastectomy (even discussed waiting times for different reconstruction options with me) so I started to get my head around that, turned out I didn’t need one. Surgery scheduled again, pre op and consents all done then MDT disagreed with the surgeon’s plan the next day so cancelled for the second time. Told I had to go for another specialist test and surgery would not be scheduled until this was done, then a week later told I didn’t as my results were reviewed by an expert instead. Had my op on the third date I was given. It was a horrible time and I felt utterly out of my own control so can empathise with how you are feeling. Every phone call seemed to bring more uncertainty and I just wanted something to be done. I was gutted, frightened and furious, same as you are now. But, I did get there in the end. So I just wanted to say, hang in there, there’s people here who understand what you’re going through and, although it’s really tough, you will get there too.

Best of luck with everything. x