How do you all navigate the ‘new you’..?

Hi there I had a lumpetomy on the 10th of October after a routine mammogram found two lumps had them removed and my nipple and still cannot look at the scar ,waiting for results to see if I need chemo but hopefully just radiotherapy as it didn't spread into my lymph nodes, I feel a little lost and lonely about the next steps,also feel like a coward that I can't look at myself when reading all the things others are going through ,you're story has inspired me too reach out I've been on this forum since diagnosed in September first time actually interacting and posting something. 

Hi Moly, I have a long scar from hip to hip and I chose not to have nipple reconstruction so I have scar circles for nipples. I now love my scars! They are why I’m still here and they saved my life. Your scars will settle down and I truly hope you learn to love them too! You’re not a coward. It is really hard! Whether you have to have chemo or radio next, you’ll get through it!
I reached out because I’ve realised it’s good to talk to other people who know your fears and thoughts. it’s hard to explain this to people who have not experienced it. Keep strong!! 

Hi Branners MB , I think the new you thing is an ongoing process for a lot of us, certainly for me. It’s 6 years since my diagnosis and I’m thankful still to be here but definitely changed. In many ways for the better but I’d still rather not have had cancer! There’s a very good paper by Peter Harvey called something like, After treatment finishes, I never manage to post a link but you can Google it. I return to it from time to time and find it very helpful. Some folk print it to show to their friends/ family. I haven’t done that, I just accept that really the only ones who ‘get it’ are those who’ve been through similar. This is a great place for support and shared experiences, and I also attend a weekly exercise class where we’ve all had cancer. That’s a lovely place both for the value of the exercise but almost more really for the social aspect. I’ve also been to a few in person sessions at Future Dreams in London and I’d strongly recommend it. They do online stuff too if you’re not near enough. I’m about an hour away. Keep posting here, it’s good to share! Love and hugs, HFxx