Good Morning everyone!
I was diagnosed with Hormonal breast cancer on the 28th December. Luckily I found the lump so my prognosis is good. I’m due to have a lumpectomy on Wednesday. They did several biopsies and found another lump so they will remove both as they both came back cancerous.
The main thing I’m worried about is my lymph nodes, I had a lymph node biopsie and it did come back as showing there were some cancerous cells so I will be having a full node clearance at the same time.
The NHS have been so amazing and very kind and supportive, I’ve had a bone scan and full body CT scan and they assure me that it hasn’t spread anywhere else.
ive been told I will definitely need radiotherapy, however until they know how many of my lymph nodes are cancerous they can’t rule out chemo.
i know that compared to a lot of people on these forums I’m really lucky.
I consider myself a very positive strong person but for some reason even through I’ve had some really big operations in the past I feel really frightened. I am married and have 2 gorgeous kids 18 and 20 and I just want to protect them from this. I have been very open with them and honest with them. I think my problem is I crack on as normal and smile and tell everyone it will be fine and now all of a sudden it’s hitting me and surgery in a couple of days!
Wow what a long rant! I’ve never used a forum before but felt like this was a really supportive space.
Helen x
Hi Helen,
This is the perfect place to rant...but you werent really ranting anyway, so don't worry. You don't have to put a strong happy front on here, which is great. I too am married with a 20-year old son. Telling him was one of the worst bits, but he was great.
I found a lump in Oct diagnosed in Nov & told I wud have lumpectomy in Dec. But mri came back showing lots more, so more biopsies and scans in Dec instead. Jan told I needed a mastectomy.
2 weeks ago I had a mastectomy, immediate tissue reconstruction (diep) and lymph node removals.
Hopefully I get results from lymph nodes next week 
The waiting and telling your family was the worst part for me. I don't know if I've got used to the waiting, or if I'm just preoccupied with recovering from my long op to get anxious yet about the node results. Either way I know I will prob be nervous when I'm there. Things changed so often, I think I just go with the flow and focus on what I can have an effect on now, not the things that are out of my control.
Wishing you the very best of luck. They have come a long way and will give you the best course of treatment for you what ever the result. Ask lots of questions (list them as soon as any pop into your head)
Big hugs xxx
