Hi everyone, I was diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer at the end of October and finally had the lump removed 3 weeks ago today. Unfortunately since then and following a hysteroscopy I now have a 'mass' in my uterus that's probably a fibroid or polyp that needs to be removed, operation number 2
I've also had my post lumpectomy appointment where I was expecting to hear when my radiotherapy would start but unfortunately I was told there are stage 2 cells still remaining so a further operation required. Then, just to mix things up a little, I got a call later that day advising that samples taken during the op would be sent to America to test my DNA for potential chemotherapy treatment before they take away anymore cells
I won't lie, it's been the hardest 6 months of my life and at the moment I feel like I'm living for my hospital trips and not much else. I'm back to square 1,where I was before I knew the type of cancer, convinced its everywhere and when I feel a new pain/ache the big C is right at the front of my mind. I'm frustrated with the delays, I spent too long putting my life on hold and I am now reaching out via this group and the Macmillan website in the hope that I'll get some 'therapy'. I've become quite antisocial, haven't been to work since my diagnosis because my confidence has reduced so much. I've limited my contact with people to avoid the questions.
Sorry to moan but I'm feeling pretty frustrated, angry, lonely all mostly at the same time! ....but I know I am pretty lucky in the scheme of things! I have 2 grown up sons at home, wonderful parents and a caring, loving partner. I just wish that I could be a bit 'nicer' when I'm around them and even better get the old me back
So we wait, and hang in there....
