Terrible day today

Hi there, sorry to hear your having a bad day, trust me its ok, tomorrow is another day and hopefully you will feel better, I had my mastectomy 4 weeks ago, I have good and bad days, more good than bad, if you want to ask anything feel free, thinking of you...feel free to rant xxx

Thankyou Lisa..I just want my life back, this has taken over, I've tried not to let it by making jokes and being positive but I can't keep it up. I know there are many worse off than me and I'm always looking for positives in the negative but I'm so tired of trying today. I can't even bring myself to take the dog out, we have a garden so she has that. This is the first day since being diagnosed of February q0th that I have felt this bad . How did your operation go? Are you healing well? Xxx

The operation went well, and the scar is healing well I've had some swelling this past week and I've had to have the fluid drained a couple of times, its uncomfortable not painful, everyday gets easier...you just have to be patient and if you don't feel like doing anything don't, trust me I am the worlds worst for not doing anything but I've had to learn to tell myself its ok to sit,relax and read a book or watch daytime TV...I've had days like you, ive cried got angry and you know what its ok,its such a scary journey but you will get through it xxxx

Glad you're healing well. My surgeon doesn't put drains in so I expect I will get some kind of fluid build up. Do you have to have any chemo or radiotherapy? You sound like me, I hate sitting around I always have to have something to do and I hate not being able to do things. I know doing the right things helps the recovery process, so I must learn to do a lot less. Glad I'm not alone feeling this way xxxx

I had a drain after the opp which was removed after 5 days...which was a relief it was like carrying a handbag around lol, I had cancer 4 years ago and had a lumpectomy unfortunately it came back so I had to have a mastectomy, the first time round I had radiotherapy and had to take tamoxifen, this time I have to have chemo which I'm due to start soon...it is a very emotional journey you never know how your gonna feel from day to day...this is a good place to express how your feeling, I find people around me are great at saying your strong you will get through this etc but unless your going through it sometimes you don't want to hear that, some days you wanna scream and say I'm not,I'm scared,I am sad, I want my life back...but you know what we will get our lives back we just need to be patient..xxxx

Oh you poor thing, going through it twice! Can't imagine what that must be like. This is why I decided on the Mastectomy, apparently the margins weren't great, plus its already spread to lymph nodes and on mri another lump was shown under the breast with the tumour . I really couldn't bear the thought of waiting for yet more biopsy results,so I opted to just have it done.You are so right what you say about other people, that is exactly the stage I'm at now! I know we need to be patient,you're right xxxx

Aww bless ya, its rubbish isn't it...Will your opp be a daycase or will you be staying in? Xxxx

Just a day case,I didn't go for reconstruction as I wanted a shorter operation plus the hospital that could do that us much further away. To be honest I just want to heal and live my life, I don't want to spend too much time having surgeries if I can help it, I was thinking of the body fat one in the future but after reading up.on it and I definitely don't want to go through it! Xxxx

Hi Lisa M.

I know what you mean with people saying how strong your being and you will get through this. The worst one is I know how your feeling, my friend was the same. Then I want to scream you don't know and nor does your friend and this is because I'm me not her.

My operation was in 2021 when the world was still a scary place. My husband was not allowed to attend appointments with me and on the day of the op was the first time I allowed my self to cry as we id goodbye. So it was also having to face the facts on my own and having to be strong for my family, I have an autistic granddaughter who when we told her had me dead and buried  but we got through to her and she was okay after that, but I did have to promise her we would arrange my funeral together if needed.

I had my first review and mammogram in October last year and they found fluid in my breast as it wasn't causing any problems or was agreed to leave it. I then had it removed this month as it felt like I had a cricket ball in my bust. 45mls later in fine.

Yes I still want to lock myself away and not see or speak to anyone but there are three times when I do want to shout I'm a survivor of cancer.

So even now I have good and bad days. But just go with the flow. 

Hi Hellesdon...I think that's what is starting to really pee me off, I know people mean we'll, but I want to say, how do you know I'm strong or you're a fighter? I want to sometimes scream and say I'm tired of trying to be strong.. or if they ask how you are,they are being polite, I feel like saying I feel like crap, I'm scared I'm sad I'm tired but they don't want to know that,so I just say oh I'm OK but I'm not. Its funny how you said about your autistic grandaughter, my grandson is autistic and he did the same lol he is the one who cheers me up, he made me laugh. I hope you continue to keep healthy and yes shout it from the rooftops! Xxxx