Hi, can't believe I'm here

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Hi all, I had an appointment with a consultant this morning after being referred by my GP for a lump. I had a mammogram, ultrasound & biopsy and after speaking to the consultant afterwards he said that based on what he sees on the scans, he thinks I have a small breast cancer. I've to go back in 1 week to discuss the biopsy results & next steps.

I'm 37 with a young family and naturally devastated. I guess I'm hoping he has it wrong but I doubt he would have told me that if he wasn't sure what he was seeing.

It's going to be a long week!

  • Hi so sorry you find yourself here but its great that you've found the forum as all the ladies and gents are so supportive and offer alot of encouragement, tips and advice. If you clink on people's names it will explain a bit about their journeys.

    I completely understand how you feel, after my first appointment I felt completely overwhelmed and the waiting is terrible but you are not alone and many of us have struggled  and still do struggle with the waiting.

    Big hugs Franny x

  • Hi Laurabelle12, sorry to hear of your diagnoses. It is a shock to the system. The waiting is always the worse part. Keep yourself busy with your family, they will help you to get through the week. I was at that stage back in September scared out of my mind. I have now started my journey and you are not alone. We are here to try and help and yes as Franny38 say's you can click on peoples names to see their journey through this time. Good luck for your results.

    hugs from Cuff x x x x x

  • Thank you, it’s been the strangest day. 1 minute I’m thinking worst case scenario & worries about my boys & the next I’m positive I’ve got this & try not to worry until the biopsy is back & we know what we’re dealing with. 

    Just can’t get his words out my head, it’s like a dream. Never thought this would be me x

  • Thanks Franny x it’s been a rollercoaster of a day & I keep crying whenever I look at my wee boys (16 months & 6 yrs). My mind is playing tricks & when I try think positive it just goes to worst case. 

    Thanks for the info about clicking on people’s name, didn’t know that so will have a look xx

  • Oh no worries I find it helps to read about other people's stories to make me feel a bit less alone and other women are going or have been through what we are going through. Plus it stops me searching Google which isn't helpful and alot of the info is outdated and well a bit of a minefield.

    I know its hard not to think of worse case but be kind to yourself, try to do nice things with your children to take your mind off of things. Easier said than done I know! Im waiting for my next appointment and not even got a date yet so I've planned lots to do in half term and a few pamper sessions ( hopefully make the days go quicker Fingers crossed)

    x

  • Hi 

    I am also 37 with 2 young kids. You can read about my journey in my bio. I am still in shock and disbelief. This forum is great for support and I’ve started to counselling to help me process everything. I wish you the best of luck and hope that this process is as easy as possible for you.

    Helen

  • Hi 

    I’ve not long finished reading your thread. I’m so sorry for what you’re going through, especially during mat leave where time is so precious. Hope the counselling is helping. Can absolutely see the need for it, it’s 1 of these things you never think will happen to you Pensive

    So glad I found this forum today as I made the mistake  mentioned & googled too much today & it’s all a bit overwhelming, especially when I’ve still to get biopsy results & proper diagnosis. 

    Laura x

  • Hi Laura,

    I found this group today too, I had my diagnosis a week ago and the waiting is certainly the worst part,  I’ve tried to be pretty strong but today I feel like I’ve been hit by a train. I’m a lung cancer Nurse and should know better about googling, but didn’t practice what I preach!

    Im 43 and my children are 17,15 and 12.

    sending hugs x

  • oh laura! You’re only human, we all go down the Google hole! Don’t forget to give yourself a break too. Seek out information but only from reputable sites and try and keep them uk based also. There’s so much information on this site and I would direct my patients to macmillan if they need any info. I’ve found the support here invaluable. I’ll keep all crossed that your diagnosis is swift and as low grade as possible. This is the worst time- waiting for a treatment plan. I found my mind went everywhere. So difficult. Come here and vent if you need.

    Helen

  • im a district nursing sister and I did the same! We’re only human after all x