I'm a newbie here and thought I'd just say hi!
I was bobbing along nicely in my happy go lucky small world and then WHAM! Breast cancer came along and decided it wanted to join the party just like one of those annoying, gate crashing guests who are determined to have their say and change the mood entirely.
I had no lumps or bumps and I was recalled following a routine mammogram in November. I went through Christmas after having a biopsy in December thinking 'well this is silly, I don't feel I'll, in fact I feel perfectly normal!' I didn't share the information with anyone other than my husband, daughter and parents because I was convinced everything would come back as a false alarm and people would think I'd cried wolf.
So...all that said, I had a lumpectomy and sentinel node removal last Thursday. I have a blue boob from the dye which doesn't go very well with the brown and yellow bruising. Now I can actually see the scars things have become very real (Jeez! I was even singing in the car on the way for surgery last week) For someone who is generally quite glib about stuff, this has been a proper reality check and with more results to come and a decision about further treatment (chemo, radiotherapy and hormones) I'm feeling a tad silly that I thought I could sail my way through this. I will be eternally grateful to Macmillan and the NHS for acting so quickly. I hope that anyone else on the same journey as me is managing to find the strength and courage to face the black cloud days and turn on the sunshine now and again. We can beat this!
