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Hello and welcome .  The mental toil with all the waiting, uncertainty is certainly something we can all identify with and it's good you've reached out.  You will find lira of support on this forum not just for specific issues but just general well being .  We have a lovely awakening thread - named because 4 years ago some ladies couldn't sleep.  People come and go and newbies very welcome, without then the thread wouldn't survive.  Just go to last post, hit reply and say hi.  
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Hi Treasure

Welcome to the forum and sorry to hear that you went through breast cancer.As Grogg said you will find a lot of support on the forum if you need it.

Best wishes

Daisy53

Hi  my “journey” sounds very similar to yours. Diagnosed last Jan, 6 months EC and Docetacol chemo, mastectomy in August, finished rads at the end of October. Now taking Letrozole.

I feel pretty much the same - physically I feel well but my mental well-being is still a work in progress. Last weekend felt a bit weird as the 1 year anniversary of diagnosis came and went. Went out for lunch and a nice long walk with my husband, dog and friends but I was keen that it was a reflective event, rather than a celebration. I’m scared to celebrate in case it’s short lived.

I have good days - like today - where everything seemed normal. Did a community event with Scouts, went for coffee afterwards, took the dog out for walk, saw my Mum (from a distance, she has Covid!) but it’s hard to predict what tomorrow might be like. 

Something I have started trying to do, on the suggestion of a Counsellor, is to set aside a time to think about all things cancer related, to check myself over, to write down how Im feeling, my fears and worries. Then once I’ve done that, I’m supposed to “put it away” until the next allotted time comes around. Not quite worked out yet - I’m pretty sure she didn’t mean daily!! But I’ll keep on giving it a go for a little bit longer.

Wishing you all the best xx

Something else I’m also trying…CBT based apparently (I have no clue about that).

At the end of each day, I try and think of a number of things that have been good about my day. You’re supposed to come up with 10…baby steps and all that.

Apparently if it’s done regularly, it retrains your brain to stop thinking of the worst/bad things first all the time. Don’t know if it’s true but it’s not going to do me any harm.

Sadly, eating 9 nice things doesn’t count towards your total