Walking back to Happiness

Aww Leolady56.  So glad you're still here!  And so sorry you are finding it tough at moment.   The pic s lovely.  And glad you are still getting your exercise in.  Hang in there and hope you feel better soon xxx

Dear LeoLady,

hopd you and Mr L feel better very soon, lovely that you’re still getting about, it was a beautiful day!

hugs xxx

Sorry you're still under the weather, Leolady56, some of the bugs going around really seem to be laying people low. Glad the Tai Chi swords are still being wielded (?) and wishing you a steady recovery. Lovely photo, such beautiful weather. Hugs, HFxx

Lovely people

TBH still coming to terms with the whole discharged thing for me. I’m not physically ill at all now. Apparently . Apart from all the usual lumps , bumps, aches, itches and pains of being 62. 

Cast adrift and unsure of where to go next . Here or ???

Sorry that was too honest but I needed to share. 

Ah well 

Tomorrow I’ll attempt a trip a NT  place I couldn’t find a few months ago. Gallop some more and see if I can find where I now fit in

Hugs lovelies

Hello lovely ladies, I am still keeping up with the walking, I did my best ever on Friday... over 15,000 steps!! this is a record for me. I knew I wouldn't get chance walked over the weekend, so I went for it, arrghh think it will be a one off though :)

moomy Thank you so much for taking the time to find and signing the petition.  This is very kind of you.  I noticed a lovely little snowdrop within your daffodils, my late mother-in-law loved snowdrops.  When I can get myself out walking again I am going to try and do 2.2 miles in 51-60 minutes (I'll let you know how it goes, haha).

I have to laugh, I found out how to do this on Friday, I did the most steps that I had, and had three green rings.... apart from the calories, well, I found I could alter this, so now steps are at 3,500 and Calories Burned are now at 1,500 = 4 green rings, okay I cheated, but, it made me feel good hahaha

I must say, I was interested to learn what a 'swale' is - very interesting.

Flossie25, I would so love to do early morning walks, I just don't think I will ever get there.  With been awake half the night by morning I am fast asleep and not surfacing till around mid-day and by the time I have procrastinated its getting on for 2:30pm before I get out walking! Owwww I'd love to turn this around.

Violetsniff, your walking results are great, plus remember these only add on whilst caring your phone, mine look quite sad as I'm trying not to look at phone so often, so not caring about.

, Thank you so much, the more people that can sign and share the petetion the better.  I haven't got an Allotment, I would love one, like you say, this would be tragic for them, even life changing.  Whats more maddening, the Commonwealth Games committee have said 'they do not need this land'.  It is the Council trying to steal it whilst using the Commonwealth Games as a cover - shameful.

HappyFeet1, I love your photos, I love everyone, I have to say the Donkey and the Longhorn (?) cow are beautiful.   

seaspirit44, I hope you are keeping well, loving the photographs - your daughter looks a good skier.  I've never been sking on snow, many years ago we tried learning at a local 'dry slope' - quiet entertaining hahaha.

, Thank you for your kind words, it is so true, they should leave this land alone.  I haven't got an Allotment, I'm trying to support for a couple of reasons, mainly this land as been an Allotment left to the people from the Calthorpe Estate, a wealthy family many years back, left for the people to use - so how are the Council to even begin to do this.  Then it goes deeper, the land has been Allotments through '2 World Wars' - it is fully used and well looked after, the Plot Holders are from all different countries, they have rescued chickens living there and also have 'Robert the Allotment Cat' and his friends, once feral and now all loved, fed and looked after.

I believe the petition has gathered over 8,800 signatures - I really hope it snowballs and they get so many more.

, well done you with your bike.  Maybe as my strength builds up I can progress onto my bike. I have spoiled myself, I brought a second hand battery powered bike and I love it (haven't used it this year) - well I think it was a bad move, I love it, I love going out on it - the trouble is, I can never see me going back to a peddle bike, I don't think I would have the stamina, I really don't.  One to work on I suppose.

Leolady56, I send both you and Mr. Leo my love and thoughts.  This BC certainly sets off so many rollercoaster rides with our thoughts.  I had a hard time dealing with my first year mammogram - a time when you think your putting it all behind you was like it was all out there in front of me, every emotion going and to be told 'come on you need to get a grip (yes around your neck if you say this once more haha). 

I spoke with Mrsox a few weeks back about this very thing, she told me she was discharged and I was, oww thats good and then thought about it and said, I don't think they should actually say you are discharged, as it sounds like thats it 'off you go' - I think 12 months on and we are still in a vulnerable place and need to know we have support waiting in the background 'if' needed! Hearing your discharged to me makes me think of the army and war times when - thats it off you go.  I imagine they like to use that word to clear themselves of patients, if anything else or any concerns pop up we go to our local doctor.  I think it should be a, well all your treatment is finished with, if you need us we are always here for you, however, its always good to contact your doctor first, however, don't panic - we are here for you.

Sending you great big hugs and very best wishes to Mr. Leo

Ladies, if I have missed any of your out, please know its not intentional, these posts take me forever at the best of times.

Sending you all great big hugs and loads of love and ..... keep walking, riding, biking, and anything else, just keep moving - even if its only getting up and walking around the living room a few times or into the garden and back, its a start and thats all that matters.

Ps. Look how far I have come, I remember posting on here about been scared going out walking, and lovely Leolady said I could come on here and clock off and back in.  Slowly we can do this, little by little xxxxxxx

Leolady56

Huge solidarity and empathy from me. I am a bit lost since being discharged. I'm back at work on a phased return and the whole experience is very much one of being 'adrift'. As with everything time is helping but strange strange strange.

My only soln has been to keep doing the things that help. So for me walking and allotment and coffee with friends. This is part of the process too. Just a very stuck on the fence part. I feel all sorts of strange things, like a fraud and neither well nor ill and a few other in between things. 

In narnia terms Im in the woods between the worlds.

Xx

You are all doing so well with your walks , I am a Luddite ,so no counting steps or posting pictures ! Did 5 miles yesterday , started in fog and finished in sunshine , beautiful ! 

So pleased someone is in touch with mrsox , seems like ( cautious ) good news at the moment .....

best wishes to all of you 

New week.  New step goal.  4000 steps a day this week.  Been out for my walk and walked furthest I have since surgery.  1.1 miles at a pace of 25 minutes per mile.  Not quite fast enough for your washing cycle Moomy!  Legs still feel heavy and lead like.  But persevere.

Tried to make an appointment with GP today.  Haven't seen one since diagnosis in July.   Can't get one before my meds run out.  Oncologist only prescribed 28 days supply and letter to GP only came through on Friday.  Maybe should have made appointment before letter came.  So I have a telephone appointment a week on Wednesday - the earliest they could do.  Never been one to go to doctor and when I have needed help it has been of the I need to see a doctor urgently variety and then got a same day appointment.  Both these times it turned out I had cancer - endometrial and then breast.  So a bit of a shock how difficult it is to get a routine appointment to discuss drugs and ongoing support.

Oh well.  The sun is shining and my fit bit says I have done 3000 of my 4000 steps.  May be trickg getting another 1000 in pottering around the house  . . . .. 

Have a good week everyone x

...sorry only just read your post...I can totally empathise as when I tried to make an appointment post-Surgery to havemy dressings done and looked at..there was such a looooong wait...and I was “Hang on a minute,have worked 33 years for NHS and here I am with cancer and you wont see me?” Very selfish I know..and to discuss drugs and ongoing support is SO Importamt...you dont realise how long the queues have become ...but I also know it isn’t their fault........Oh ...that is such a beautiful quote “In the woods between the worlds”...it sounds like it describes being discharged perfectly.

WhatHappened...Hi nice to see you again...and I just realised what your ID name means...so fab!!...yes I said last night I think our cancer experiences are like PTSD....and I completely agree with your description of being”discharged”

...my symapthies go out to you...I wish I could say something to help you...i keep reading to get a better understanding ....

Well Knit n Natter (or “Natting’as someones husband called it)was fabo again today.The time just goes so quickly,and I was next to G who is a sewer in her own right (we both prefer sewing to knitting)and tutors people or has in the past.I took my delicate sewing and was telling her all the stitches I was doing and finishing off invisibly...just showing off really,as her Grandmother taught her and she would of course have known it all before I was born!!It is so nice to meet somebody who appreciates it though.She loved my silks and antique french ribbon which I took to show her,and then she was rooting in my bag to see my old lace n stuff.Gish I felt like the Queen.Everyone knows so well how to knit there,and are so good..and the G said she was just learning how to do “blackberry stitch”and I squeeled I can do that!!SOBeside myself with excitement cos there was something she didnt know which I did!!

Everyone talks non-stop and I try to outdo them in glamour,but never do,but it is fun trying!!!!

So nice to have somewhere to get dressed up for...

I love it there and F says the ladies ask where I am when I can’t go!!How lovely!!

Now I really will worry you, dear AnnJac, I went out well after I’d started the washing machine (got car keys to get sunglasses, returned said keys, faffed about as to should I take a jacket or not) and still returned with 8 minutes left on the washer (it counts down!) so I was probably almost walking 4 mph.....certainly a good 3mph. I did stride out! 

However, very little walking today so far, guess I’ve no excuse as there’s plenty of daylight left?

hugs xxx