AWAKE.........

Warm is a slightly British understatement!!

Kacang said:

And as for you Londonlass. I suspect you might have slept better last night as you weren't on so much. I looked for messages from you a couple of times but ... nothing. 

Had a very tearful day today, and spoke to hospice nurse who at least listened to my concerns and said she was a little concerned about the loss of feeling in my fingers! I assumed it was down to the stiff joints, but she said it's not really 'normal' so she'd like to keep an eye!? 

Anyway moan over, the day at least finished on a positive a lovely meal out! Yes I spent the whole evening fanning myself and dripping with sweat, but it was a lovely evening with old friends! Now to hopefully get some sleep!

Hope you have a good day Lynn xxxx

I just can't get comfy! So tempting to move my bed outside!! 

Hope you are all managing to get some sleep! ((((((((Cooling hugs)))))))) Night night all xxxxxx

LL, this is for you...

My internet has been down for the last day and a half. I come back on to five bunnies :D. Loving them, happy, sad, whatever!!!

Glad you had a nice meal, hope your joints are not too painful tonight. And yes, it is too bloody warm! Anne hope your appt went ok and you were not too sweaty - lol!

It has been a busy day for me today, my daughter's 16th birthday but tomorrow will be crazier - my first day back at work since November!!! Not sure I will sleep but I am going to try now. Goodnight all. 

Gay xxx

Hi Gay, I hope your daughter had a lovely birthday and you enjoyed celebrating with her! 

Now on to the exciting bit, going back to work! Bet you are a little nervous as well as excited! But I'm sure once you are there you will enjoy every minute of it! Being treated like you again, you have some life outside of Cancer :-) I hope you enjoy being back with your colleagues!

Now of course I couldn't send you on your way without a special pic just for you!..........

ENJOY EVERY MINUTE HUN, AND DON'T OVERDO IT!! 

Thanks for my SuperHug it was much appreciated and today very much needed xxxx

xxxxx

AND NOT FORGETTING.......

Whether working, relaxing or having medical appointments. I hope its a Good Day for everyone. Hopefully it will be a more bearable heat, but if not remember the Supermarket is the place to be.......the fridge area is the place to be! In fact I can only assume it was designed by a lady during her menopausal years!!

((((((((((cooling hugs))))))))))) to all.

Special Good Luck to Gay as she rejoins the world of work, have a great time Hun xxxxxx

Good luck today Gay.

Another bad night but this one was the worst for a while.i didn't post anything when I got back from the hospital yesterday as I was all flustered and trying to sort my thoughts out.i have been desperate to get back to normal which for me means minding babies again.i was hoping I could have my op then ,with a little help from a kind friend who has said she'll come around here and do any lifting for the first couple of weeks when I start back in September.all good except I was told this is only the first op and I would need another in 4-6 months.aaarrrgh.how am I supposed to take time off again?i feel like forgetting this whole reconstruction idea.

Fed up and in a quandary 

Morning all.  Hope everyone is ok this am.  I have a question. 

Sleeplessness seems to be the norm post BC diagnosis.  Was wonderig if anyone has had any luck with sleeping tablets?  Asked my doctor if she could prescribe me some for the nights before I work.  I do 13 1/2 hour shifts (only 3 a week) and they are tough to get through on 2 or 3 hours of restless sleep so she has given me zolpidem. Off today so took one last night to trial it before a work day (wanted to make sure it wouldn't make me drowsy the next day). Didn't need to worry about it as it didn't touch me! Took it at 11.45pm, started to feel a little woozy 30 mins later, so light off and curled up. Probably fell asleep within 30 mins and then awake at 4am and have tossed and turned ever since! Finally gave in and got up at 6.30 as I was too frustrated and fidgety to even rest anymore, lol.

I haven't been a great sleeper since my hysterectomy ........hot sweats.  Then last year hips, pelvis, back, neck and shoulders started getting increasingly more painful and was recently diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis.  So between those two problems, sleep has become less and less restful.  Problem is I'm a nurse and I need to be able to think clearly and focus. I know that most people need to be able to focus and concentrate in their jobs but if I fuck up at work (checking drugs and working out doses or observing sick people for subtle changes) I'm scared I could cause damage someone or miss something important that leads to harm.  It's scary.  We are terribly short staffed (as are most wards nowadays .... thanks Jeremy Hunt) so I'll be leaving the ward in dire straights if I go off sick.

Had a mini meltdown and started crying at work yesterday, not because of the BC but due to tiredness. Ward sister was great and took me to the side to ask what she could do to help me in my situation (I've told my colleagues).  For the time being I am going to change my hours and do shorter shifts and she says if I need to go off sick she understands and supports this. 

I just don't want to go off sick, cos I'm NOT sick! And anyway, I'm going to have to have a ton of time off after op and for radiotherapy (I live in Jersey so have to go to UK for my radio ...... 3-6 weeks in a hotel, lol).

So ladies ...... any advice re sleeping/sleeping tablets?

Sorry for the rant.

Wishing you all a peaceful easy day xxxx

Michele

This picture just suits me at moment, got to sleep around 4am and have a 9.30 appointment at hospital for visit to chemo unit before treatments start on Tuesday, woke at 5am then 6am just nodded off and now up again to get ready so rather than cute and cuddly I could bite hubbies head off he keeps saying are you ready yet! I love him really but wish he would shut up! And let me get ready quietly I'll be ok in half an hour. Right that's my grouch over with!! I will be nice from now, hope everyone has a good day and that wherever you are you get some bright weather. Hugs to everyone