AWAKE.........

Oh dear Mag123 , that sounds really poor. 

Night night dear Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish

 hugs xxx

Good morning....

Still it rains....3 days continuous now. Yesterday I had to drive to a funeral. A member of MU I had known for nearly 20 years. It was one hour and half away and it rained both there and back. Dreadful....

A brave lady had  four different cancers in the last 20 years....3 breast and 1 abdominal....all successfully treated but unfortunately the chemo had weakened her heart so after an attack last week, she couldn't be saved.

The maire in her village gave a speach saying how she would be missed and her local council had given flowers. That doesn't happen very often. She was vibrant, kind and helpful. She chose a red theme and I must say it was uplifting.

The collection went to BC research and there were two or three of us there who had had it and were able to publicise the need to keep those mammogram appointments.  At least two people I chatted with who I knew vaguely realised they should make their appointments.  I felt Jacqui's influence was continuing despite her unexpected death.

Ironically yesterday was the first day I have had to myself since mum came in 2022 . My sons took charge of her for the day......It took a funeral to give me a day out......Ah! Well.....c'est la vie. Back to normal service today.

P.S. I must book my own mammogram for this year.....I keep ' going to do it .'

That sounds against employment Law, unless they have done away with that. Us the hourly rate of pay higher to reflex the need for Flexi working. They can make up the rules it seems. Working for a big employer sometimes gets one better terms and conditions. ️

 Violetsniff hooray for your good treatment and complete recovery xxx

 Mag123 it was like that at the nursing home. We had to say we would work 54 hours a week if the service required it. We all signed but only worked what extra we could manage.

Maybe sign it and then do want you want. Employers take the mick these days. Just be cheeky back xxx

Good luck anyway whatever you decide xxx

Night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish

 hugs xxx

Violetsniff So glad your vision is fine and you didn’t get the external pain .

I had flu jab the other day and asked about shingle Vaccine ..I have to wait till rash and itch / pain gone . Getting less every week so won’t be long .

Vaccine is non live and you get two second one 6 months after first . The one hubby had in 2016 was a live vaccine and you only had one .

I’ll be there as soon as I can don’t wa that again lol take care 

Night night Fruit Loops, sleep well and stay safe, plenty of sleepy fairy dust for all who wish

 hugs xxx

How typical.....I can't sleep on the very night we could have an extra hour.......My mind is racing. I think the funeral last week of someone who had fought bc 3 times has unsettled me more than I realised. I am always vigilant with checking but last time I didn't see the signs. I have a mammogram soon so actually I have nothing to worry about and after 8 years I probably should be more confident but then I think....if another cancer develops now how would I cope with mum here and OH who seems to be increasingly dependant on me remembering things for him where his medication is concerned. It's all hypothetical.......I really don't have any cause to worry. Just It's the middle of a slow night. I can hear the rain. Forecast for another three weeks......and yes, I know it will be natures way of replenishing the waterways and underground reservoirs but it's still depressing.

I am making a cup of tea now and washing towels on the cheaper night rate which can tumble dry. Nothing is going to dry outside. Then I shall read my book. I know I won't sleep again tonight. I never do. I so envy those ex bc people who say they are getting on with their lives and don't think about it. Is it possible or do you think they are being completely honest? I can live a good life but I still have nights like tonight from time to time. I am happy to encourage the newly diagnosed with my experience.....here I am TNBC after eight years all clear but I can't always convince myself.....

I suspect I'm not alone......

I promise to be more cheerful in the morning.

Come on LondonLass  and Northerner  a few of those cracking jokes please!

I had one of those nights two nights ago. I had been googling medications after I read something about Alzheimer's. My Mother had both Alzheimer's and dementia. Some antihistamines long term may be linked to it. Claritine is better. Also taking some antidepressants at the same time as a hormone blockers can reduce the effect. 

Here goes here's one of my fears, if I get Alzheimer's my son won't be able to come home. He is very complex and dealing with the antiepilepsy drugs is complicated nevermind dealing with a seizure. It's feels too far away to worry about, denial is the best policy. 

1 yr mammogram in Dec, already had a wild goose chase with that one. I was sent away from a screening appt and told to wait for the surveillance one. Look for the positives everyday. Chichester Cathedral yesterday. Saw the Doves of Peace exhibition and listened to choir practice.