AWAKE.........

WhatHappened, I’m still here my lovely. Haven’t been posting as much. Sadly fatigue is still affecting my life and I just can’t keep up with all this at the moment. But I do pop on here now and again, so you haven’t got rid of me quite yet and of course….

LP is still around. He goes along to peoples appointments when asked although think he’s been less busy recently or at least he hasn’t told me he’s been going out?!! 

Hope all is well with you? I think about all you lovely Fruit Loops often and I hope to start posting more regularly soon

I did finally see the Physio yesterday about my knee. He was lovely. Very thorough and has given me exercises that hopefully will help strengthen my knee. He has told me that walking Bella everyday I sn’t great  BUT I love walking Bella, it’s the nicest part of my day. So hoping that if I perhaps try and stick to walking on the grass and perhaps sit down for a bit plus do all the leg strengthening exercises then I might still be able to walk her!! I hope!

Anyway, I must try and get a bit more sleep. So I shall love you all and leave you! Take care everyone. Sending lots of Love to you all. Sal xxx

Sorry one last thing.

you look absolutely stunning as does your son and his wife! I hope you had a wonderful day. You certainly all look very happy in that pic xxxx

Thank you so much for your warm welcome! my mother has been diagnosed with breast cancer early July, and had her mastectomy and sentinel node biopsy on august 16th. Still waiting for some results, but surgeon said that the lymph nodes were tested positive. So every night my mind wonders off to the worst possible scenario (typical). Had ct and bone scan last week. Not sure when we get the full results of the surgery and the scans! So the wait is just awful. Surgeon did say another surgery may be required or chemo, but all depends on the results he said. 
feel so stressed out as feel like the nodes are going to be passing cancer cells. 
This is our story. Unfortunately (but grateful), I’m a new mother as well. So as I was getting used to the baby this bad news came about. So it’s just been extremely stressful. Fortunately it has been discovered and I am on maternity leave to care for both my baby and mum. But it can be challenging at times of course!

Daizy03, sorry to hear about your mum and at such a difficult time, when you probably really needed her! Although I’m sure the new baby has given you both something other than Cancer to focus on! 
Having cells in the nodes is very common and it doesn’t mean it has spread throughout her body, so try not to panic. It’s the job of the nodes to capture the cancer cells and contain them. Obviously sometimes the cells do get through but hopefully this won’t be the case for your mum! 
Dependent on scan results and number of nodes affected will determine if Chemo or Radiotherapy or both are required! But either way your mums team will find the treatment that is best suited to her. 
Chemo isn’t easy, but each person reacts slightly differently. I managed to work as a Nanny throughout my treatment, others struggled to work so needed to concentrate on just getting through each day. We are all different.

Just take things one step at a time and don’t try and think to far ahead! Wait for these results and go from there. We will all be here to support you and your mum every step of the way! Day or Night.

I’m sure others will be on to say Hi shortly. But take care of yourself! You need to look after yourself or you’ll be no good for your mum. Fingers crossed for positive scan results. Sal xxxx

Hi WhatHappened

DBB means ..dinner,bed &  breakfast . That price was for two and included a charge of ten pounds a night for Dexter . We're looking forward to break so is Dexter he has a new pop up tent crate which he has been getting used to .

think he happy with it  

I understand your fear of covid but your relatives are right we have to move on and learn to live with it . My attitude is that the responsibility for my health is mine . So I chose when and where to go at the least busy times and if I believe too busy will not go in . I still gel and mask up also carry small spray for shopping baskets etc .  I do social distance and will ask others to step back . Check out your local area you will discover that there are responsible retail and eateries that you could visit to build up your confidence . 

Or just try to get out in fresh air and walk

, what a beautiful photo of 3 lovely people, you should be so proud. A rough long journey for you to Cambridge but as you say, they know you and will have maybe more insight into helping you.

@Sal/LondonLass, difficult about that knee, so sorry when I know you love walking Bella. But hopefully the strengthening exercises will help. 

Daizy03, you’ve had some lovely caring help, and yes, you really do need to take care of yourself too as the wee one will instinctively know you’re not functioning as you should and may well play up accordingly! And yes, treatment these days is so good for BC, tailored to exactly what is needed, there are just some waits while the very best way forward can be decided upon.

WhatHappened, oh dear, late night posting again? (And on my thread too, bless you, that was so sweet!) but you do need your sleep! I’m totally with you about the virus and am so scared myself too, hardly go anywhere and wear my mask even when family are here with me to keep me company, partly because daughter is vulnerable and partly because son mixes due to his work! But I do remember the PM talking about bodies piling up and despair at their cavalier attitude. 

Lacomtekp, I think France has the right idea about precautions!

All other Fruit Loops, I haven’t forgotten you, my brain is a bit addled with poor sleep (I know you’ll understand!) 

big hugs to you all xxx

Hi WhatHappened I always enjoy your posts and am reading back at the moment so found the one where you said you are eating too much.I have to say that going to Slimming World is helping me as I have very little self discipline too.You in fact have to be weighed….

Although I am being a little rebellious at the moment I know I will cowtow to the motivation (which I need)so have paid for 6 weeks upfront.

perhaps it would help you in the same way?
love Violet 

Xxx

what a handsome couple in the photo you snuck it at the end!Congratulations and nice to see you xx

moomyagree with your post and I still wear my mask in the car with my friend.(and sit in the back)she seems a bit cross about it saying she hasn’t got COVID aand I haven’t.

To be honest it is a habit now,but really,this month I have to see a very vulnerable relative a few times and have got to be cautious.

I am a little concerned that the numbers are going back up,too.

unfortunately all of my siblings are 70 and over,(except my twin)and I live alone so need to see them but have been avoiding it all through COVID in case I carry it in on my clothes,etc.

Some days I feel you can’t be too careful but 1 and a half years of hardly seeing your siblings is a very long time and it gets to me a bit xx

Yes you’re right Violetsniff and of course I’ve got very recent experience as daughters partner (double-vaxxed) caught it recently from fomites! Fortunately all well now but was quite poorly.

Hugs xxx

Thank you so much for your reply and kind words. 
That’s true! Gives us another focus. Although I do sometimes feel bad as I get too overwhelmed from thinking about the cancer/waiting times  I feel guilty for not being able to care for him the way I wanted.  And then I also feel guilty for not being able to care for my mum as It’s almost like I have to split into two. 
For the time being, 2 out of 6 nodes were positive. I was expecting it to be none as that’s what they reported on the ultrasound. So it was a big shock. The surgeon did say chemo May be avoided if it is her2 negative, but then you still have the worry about what if it’s spread. At least chemo can kill it isn’t it? As hard as it is.

thank you so much. Have you had any surgery yet or was the first step Chemo for uou?

Thank you for your advice moomy. True I need to but I think I’m just such a worrier it doesn’t help