AWAKE.........

Good Evening everyone

I love the Guinea Pig pictures. This is what it is like living with the little fella's, they are always busy!!!!

Hip Hip Hooray for the Stable Mabel news absolute rubbish about the bulging disc, it sounds much worse than the degenerative disc thing I have. It's not fair you have enough to be going on with. I hope you are managing to go from strength to strength gaining mobility and generally getting out and about.

Sending love and hugs to everyone else. I have not had much to report here except a few days out in between work, Buxton, Saltaire, Haworth and Downham if anyone knows the places. xx

They won !!!! Xxxx

And when your boy is happy - you are too! 

I am here...lying in bed, wide awake once again. It is a year today that I went to the clinic and was told I had bc and it was in my nodes too. I have never been so frightened...the next couple of weeks were so scary.....I genuinely do not know how I got through them. But I did, shock results from op, ct and bone scans to see if it had spread....my daughter going through A levels and my boy, a young teenager, my hubbie just trying to keep up....

A year on, I look a lot better ...I have colour in my face and my head is covered with hair....people don’t take a second look anymore...I have eyelashes that I can curl....and apparently I look quite trendy! The outside is deceiving though...I am still so scared....my joints ache from the hormone treatment, I am trying to regain some of my fitness. I am frustrated that I am still over my normal weight and am creaky and so often tired! 

I feel like I am on some parallel universe....everyone is quite rightly going about their lives and we are too....but I often feel on the edge of everything....not sure how to put in words. It’s not bad just different.....

i just want to say....it’s been crap....BUT a year on I can hope and dream of a future. I am trying so hard to be positive and move on....

Thank you to everyone on the Awake thread....I may not have always posted but I have spent many nights reading posts and feeling as if I belong....so thank you ( and a big cuddle to LP)

So glad yiu are stable Mabel , but very sorry you have sciatica. It is a horrible pain, and so debilitating. Glad it seems to be easing. Take care xxxx

, you must be so fed up with the missing results. You need to know the state of your bone density,nit is very important!  Love the Guinea pig pics.

I had sixatica for 6 months in 2006 . Fortunately I was able to keep moving, but it was agony. Eventually it was cured by a steroid/local anaesthetic injection into the nerve root. It was caused by a cyst (of all things) pressing on the nerve root. I kept on working because whatever I did it made no difference to the pain, so I thought I would distract myself with other peoples' problems! Xxx

Hi Galligirl well done on your year seems you've done amazing. I'm over two years now but still have can't believe it moments and yes still get scared But.... It is getting easier. I completely relate to feeling on the edge of everything even in my lovely family I  still feel that at times so I'm sure it's normal  Be proud of yourself for all your treatment and coping so well even if on the inside we feel different we put out smile  on xxx

Sending you big hugs Galligirl - you know, the time seems to go so fast - at the begining of this journey is so, so scary, no one will ever understand what it is like to hear those words - no one will realise unless they face that situation. You have come so far, like all the Fruit Loops, we have moved forward, we have no choice really - but, the good thing is 'we each have each other for support' and I truly believe everyone one on this forum plays a part in helping us all get through this.  Each of us bring our own special something to help each other.  

Please keep feeling positive - it is hard, but you have done the hard part, now you have to keep moving forward, don't look back, you are not going that way, look forward, slowly step by step, day by day, you are further away from all that, you can do this, you have come so far....

Sending Great Big Hugs and lots of love xxx 

Good to hear from you Galligirl, sounds like you are doing well. Well Done you! I think we all relate to that feeling on the outside of what’s happening around you. But i’m Sure that slowly things will improve and at each anniversary you will look back and see how far you have come! You should be very proud of yourself, you faced your fears head on and came out the other side a stronger and wiser woman! Xx

sorry to hear your back is still playing up! Not long till that appointment now, although i’m Sure it seems a million miles away to you! Great news re being Stable Mable. I’m hoping for the same news when my appointment comes round! Still have another week and a half to wait!!

well I suppose I should try and get some sleep! Night night my lovely Fruit Loops. Sweet Dreams xxxxx

Fruit Loops just checking in to wish you all a lovely Sunday - hoping you all have a great day.

My Sunday will include a trip to the vets with stray cat, Mr. Bling aka Baxter!!

Don't panic, he is okay, a little beaten up, but okay, no thanks to the first vets we went to!! (that's another story in itself!!)

Sending love and hugs to everyone xxxx