AWAKE.........

xxx

what the matter hun??

Gay xxx

LL 

I maybe just an internet friend but I am a good reader and I can offer a big virtual cwtch! You are not useless - why do you feel that way today? You have a job with a lovely little one - I am sure they think you are great, you have a family - I am sure they think you are great and you have a big internet family, and we definitely think you are great!!!

Gay xxx

Wassup hon? You're far from useless - we all love you and think you're great!!

Hugs xx

Totes agree with wombat and toxophilite. We love you and value your comments, insights, pics, and so on. 

After I was ill during chemo and not capable of much at all (eg I could walk 20 metres, no more), someone said to me "you need to focus on what you can do, not what you can't". I don't think I've ever been given better advice. The only sad thing is that I can't remember who said that to me, so I can't thank them. Sigh. 

Mmmm Maybe I should put that on my signature block ...

Thanks Gay, wasn't even working today! Had coffee with mum and sister, although I may as well of not been there. Then had an appointment with a benefits advisor to help me fill out a form. Doesn't sound like anything much does it?! But the form pointed out/ made me realise how much I now rely on my parents, just to get through the day! Funny how when it's written down it sounds worse. I am obviously grateful for all that they do for me but i just feel a bit useless and I know I still manage to do quite a lot, but on days like this I can't see the positives!

Probably just need a kick up the backside, there are people far worse off than me! I just need to accept the 'new' me! Which is easier said than done! But I am trying.

Thanks for listening, hope you had a good day xxxxx 

THANK YOU, Karen and Lynn too. The 3 of you have been an amazing support over the last few months/year I am very very grateful to of had contact with such lovely ladies xxxx

Hi LL,

It is hard isn't it, relying on others. And I do realise more for you than for me hun. Since my sister passed last year, my mum is doing so much to make sure things are ok for me, but it makes me feel so bad having to rely on her. I still miss my sister lots and lots too. I feel so bad cos I think my mum (aged 72) should be enjoying her time and she is caring for me. It doesn't feel right that she can get around better than me.

I don't go back to work full time till september. I am so scared that I will not cope. I will just have to take it bit by bit.  

I really don't know what I would have done without this forum.

Gay xxx

toxophilite,

I don't always respond to your posts cos not her+ve but

I am here 

Gay xxx

Whether you're responding to me specifically or not, your posts are always encouraging Gay, so thank you!!