AWAKE.........

Ah WhatHappened,  looking at things on the computer just makes me more awake too. I sometimes just give up on sleep and get up and log on to work.

Be careful of that downloads folder. We had an upgrade last week at work and I lost everything in downloads. It only saved my documents to the cloud. 

Wide awake and very fed up. Why does this happen? What is it about having a cancer diagnosis that makes one incapable of sleep. It has to be a subconscious thing as I was deep asleep and then just woke up and that was it. 

Typically, I have a busy day at work tomorrow/today. I shall be nodding by lunchtime.  

Cat has been fed. Husband located asleep in an armchair downstairs. He hadn't wanted to disturb me again when he finished work at 1 after I moaned at him last night. So I can't blame him for waking me this time!

Nighttime is when all the dark thoughts appear. Mostly about all the things that need doing to the house rather than about health matters. We need a new skylight in the roof, a new architrave to the side of the roof, a new kitchen, new bathroom and a new downstairs toilet. I need to win the lottery. But then if you don't enter it you won't win.  I have never even won £10! We used to do the lottery weekly with the same numbers. When my husband was contracting and was without work years ago, we decided it was a luxury we couldn't afford. The first week we didn't buy a ticket, our numbers came up. That's how my luck with money goes!

Anyway, I am teusting I have now sent the last of you wakeful people off to sleep.

Take care

Debs

Fruit Loops……

Thanks for thinking of me Grogg, WhatHappened and moomy. I’m still here! Haven’t disappeared, yet!! Just been feeling a bit tired…..well I’m always tired! I try to pop on here and join in with the conversations but I just can’t concentrate and can’t keep up with what’s going on! Sorry! I do read some of the posts and I think about you all, often! 

As for waiting for results….

I’m ‘FINE’

Why would I be worried? There’s no reason to think that anything has changed!! 
I’m ‘sure’ everything will be Stable…..

Of course I’m not wasting my time/energy worrying, what would be the point?

Okay, maybe i’m a teeny tiny little bit worried and this 2 week wait is just the pits! I’m always frustrated at this point because I know that there’s a report somewhere that has the results waiting to be read, but I can’t get those results till Wednesday!!! Assuming Onco has them by then, which he better!! 

Anyway other than that I’m okay! Sleeping on and off. But that’s the norm for me! Anyway, sending lots of love to you all. Sal xxx

LondonLass you are an inspiration. Your thoughtful and caring comments when you are in constant pain yourself really do provide support for the rest of us on here and humble me.

I just read your profile. You are such a strong lady. To go through that waiting game every 6 months must be so hard and yet you remain outwardly cheerful. You have said you are a bit worried during that 2 weeks. I think I would be a total mess.

I truly admire you.

Oh Fruit Loops, it seems it was a busy night! I nearly joined at 3 am but resisted, I’d been awake for an hour….that blue light of phone would have been worse!

I did manage to get off to sleep again after the necessary wee!

Anna12345, it’s still early days after such a big op, but if the pain persists it might be helpful to have a chat with your BCN? 

Grogg, I ‘think’ I’m doing ok, and son is getting near his 6 week appointment to see how he’s doing, he’s on watch and wait at present. 

Hugs xxx

Hello!!! Yes I was awake at 5 too but resisted the urge to log on  LondonLass the two weeks waiting are the worst, I get the pathology results tomorrow from my op and it’s in the back of your mind, or the front, constantly, let alone in your situation. Thank you all for your words of encouragement and posts supporting me. I have to remember it’s still early days, it was a big operation, etc. on the back of 6 months of chemo, and in many respects I know I’m doing great, I guess it’s just that being in the constant discomfort does get you down, as all know from our various non cancer ailments!! I see the breast consultant again tomorrow so I’ve a list of things to bring up but the plastics consultant wasn’t worried about anything when I saw him Monday so I know I’m the same as many many other women who have this experience. I’m just over it now!! Well!

It’s a beautiful day! I shall make the most of it and have a good walk, always lifts the spirits!! Have a good one everyone. That’s another long night behind us xxx

Hi Snowys Mumthat is funny and well detected!!

yes we cld write a book,but nobody would believe us,as my Mum used to say…

NorthernerI think it was you who put that nice poster up of things for children to do.I am copying and zooming out or enlarging it as it seems so good.

Grogg I recognise those symptoms!I was saying to a friend yesterda pay that I am like that lady on Telly who had some money to redo her bathroom and spent it all on the taps!!

just reading thro posts and this is as far as I have got.

Out to friends’ for lunch yesterday and took a pickie of lovely old houses around and about…

Well I am being moderated again!maybe it was the “leafy villages”I mentioned,or my lovely English tea party?who knows?

LondonLass.and moomy.hoping those  results are ok…

so,so sorry to hear you are feeling a bit low.It is the constant pain and shock to your body and worrry etc.I do hope you can find something to brighten your day…but more imporatnt lay ,some better pain relief.Could you ask the medical staff?

WhatHappened…it is a known fact that something in the computer can keep you awake -so best not to be on it for too long at night time…also,your downloaded things….I changed my iPhone recently and now have 400 emails (in red)waiting for me on my home page.It is just downloaded after I couldn’t get on for about a week,but I have read them all.Goodness knows how to delete?

little pickie for those who feel a bit down…my friends’ home made soup xx

Lovely Violetsniff I’ve been soup making this week .. leek & potato and today ..carrot and coriander all into pouch bags and in freezer . Now batch cooking mince & onion which can then  be portioned and frozen they will then transfer  to caravan freezer 

And be defrosted and made into cottage pie / bolognaise / pie or with dumpling when we are there . 
love the old houses .

Snowys Mum, sorry to be a pain, but please could you let me know the brand and dosage of CBD oil you use? Tried to find your post but couldn’t , and am a bit confused by all the choice on Amazon. 
Thank you xxx

seaspirit44

You would never ever been a pain. To be honest I have bought all different sorts over the years. I nip into Holland and Barrett when passing to see if there is any on special offer. The weaker the strength the more drops you have to take.

Will upload a pic of the current one I got off Amazon, its the cheapest one and I order two bottles at a time. One for upstairs and one for downstairs. Currently take 8 drops morning and night with zero side effects.