AWAKE.........

Weeblemum sorry you have had a bad night. Hope you get caught up on some sleep today. Xx

Aww Sal why is there always something for you. I wish I had s magic wand to take it all away. Sending hugs xx

Hi London Lass.

Been a bit of an insomniac myself over the years. Strangely after the cancer and treatment I've started sleeping like never before. I suppose subconsciously my mind is maybe thinking 'well the cancer hasn't killed me so what else is there to lie awake worrying about'. :) On the odd occasion though I still lie awake but I started buying Valerian from HnB. One about two hours before bed then another as you go to bed. They really help. They smell rank though!! Maybe worth a try. It could help. 

All the best. Xx

Joedec that's it exactly you are  in limbo the waiting is the worst. I can't say I knowhow you feel because nobody can but what I can tell you is what happened to me.i was constantly ringing my breastcare nurse worried sick about pathology report. She said to me look you know you have cancer the report is just the maths its more for us than you to plan you're treatment.  Results day I had my sister and my partner wait in reception while I went in alone I was terrified but I had to as I was so scared and I'd convinced myself it would be the worst case scenario. I think sometimes the mind can play tricks on us especially when tired and stressed. I pray that things arnt anywhere near as bad as you imagined. Sending hugs. Xx

Hi LondonLass...awww bless you.Your body has been through suuch a lot...maybe it is just “letting it all out”....Don’t be hard on yourself.It could be anxiety ...or something to do with your medication...maybe deep deep sleep just took over to help your body...Anyway,don’t be embarrassed xxx (((( big hug)))) xxx

Optimistic apologies I'm so behind with all the posts on here. Im' just so nervous for my op Tuesday. I keep gettng emotional had my eldest daughter home to stay we had such a fun night. Today I'm just so teary. Are you ok? Did i read you were partying? Xx

...will be everso glad to meet at the Meetup on 17th...sad that ..and ...won’t be able to be there...but it will be good...

JoDec...wondering if it has wriggled out a bit?but I am sure you are getting it checked at moment...

sorry to all who couldn’t sleep...I HAD to,as am catching a Coach this morning so had sleeping tab and alarm clock,Ipad alarm,ranged by bed,and BT calls x 3,and my friends ‘ boyfriend calling...then woke up on own ....

anyway a little piccie for those who need a huggle...xx

(Taken from H**C advert)

Toxaphalite/Karen,

I really admire you for going back to your sport. I’m aiming to be gymming again when chemo etc is done.

I totally understand your frustration with not being able to shoot the same but you’re doing something about it rather than giving up; I admire that. You never know, the shoulder strength and tone might return over time.

Xxx

Hi Jodec hope you’ve had your drain sorted now.i had 2 in after my LD flap surgery and came home with 1 which stayed in for 2 weeks.it leaked a bit but a lot of it was down to my clumsiness/forgetfulness as I would stand up and walk off sometimes without my bag.drove me mad.after 2 weeks it’s was still draining over 50 mls so I lied at clinic and said it was less than 30 the target for it being removed.oops

Mind you the worst time was in hospital when the nurse somehow trapped both drains in the bed rails without me realising until I tried to turn over.ouch!!

Hi JoDec , I haven’t been on here for s few days because I’ve been really low . The reason is the worry about my pathology report too. I’m a planner also but so much depends on this doesn’t it . I really hate it and it’s just so unfair. I would not say I’ve had an easy life . My friend counted that I’ve had 10 operations in my adult life plus all sorts of problems carrying babies but I’ve always worked and worked hard and suddenly the idea of being unwell and not working and the consequences is too much . BUT     We have no control yet so wait and worry it is . I’m thinking of you and pray our reports are the best we hope for . 

Londonlass, please don’t worry . It could be a number of inicient reasons . Medication induced sleep or even a slight chill to name but a few  . My husband jumped out of bed just over a fortnight ago and weed in the bath . He had no recollection of this and was mortified when he realised he’d started weeping in bed before he got up . He is working so hard to cover my wages he just went into the deepest sleep for that hour . Please try and not worry . I know it’s like another problem but this can happen to anyone at any time xxx 

Ladies please be kind to yourselves and give yourselves a hug and a pat on the back . We are living with this c**p , no one knows what it’s like if they don’t have cancer but we know just getting through a day at a time can be exhausting.... but we are doing it ! You are all amazing xxxx Maria xxx