Hi All
ok so having found my Side Effect for cycle 1 on Capecitabine was not a side effect at all but an infection, i am feeling more confident.
i find myself eager for the next blood test to see if i can start cycle 2. but yet i fell its a bit strange that i feel this way especially with being scared of needles
I mean after 9 days of severe diarrhoea i sort of feel that i can deal with what ever chemo can throw at me. i dont know if this is a right way? a good way? or arose tinted spectacles way of looking at things. Am i setting myself up for a fall?
I guess with it still being early days for me i am still not sure what to think or expect. I find the mental side of things the hardest to cope with and i have always been a person who prefers to do things well informed with my eyes wide open rather than peering into the gloom of the unknown
i get that we all deal with things in our own ways and maybe there is no completely right or wrong way, but i al looking to find ways to stop my mind running off into the distance screaming for mercy or thinking its going to be a breeze when its really just the eye of the storm
Maybe i am just over thinking in general. here there in no one to sit and have a chin wag with and with in most cases no or little in the way of English language i feel a bit out of it. i have asked my oncologist and i think she is trying to placate me and just keeps saying i will be fine or maybe with maybe not the best language skills she just does not get where i am coning from.
any words of wisdom from experience for me please? i am already dreading my birthday and christmas as i will be in cycle 3 for both
i just want to handle things in a better way and be able to get my head in order more
Thanks in advance
