Stood at a cross roads.

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Hi

Not a place I ever thought I would post. 

Two weeks ago on a Tuesday, cancer happened to other people. On that Tuesday I was fit and symptomless. On Wednesday I was blue-lighted to A/E with severe abdo pain. On Thursday I had an ultrasound which found a problem they couldn't determine confidently. On Friday I had a CT scan and was told I had stage 4 colon cancer with liver mets. By Monday the multidisciplinary had met and less than a week later I had a liver biopsy and spent 2 nights in the hospital.  My time in the cancer ward was a reality check on the journey I am about to walk on. 

The speed I have gone through the system has been scary given everything you read about delays. Things will now stop as we await the results of the biopsy. The reason is they don't know what type of colon cancer I have. They suspect a small chance it's NET and I am in limbo waiting!!

I was given this devastating news and then progressed quickly through the system. Not sure any emotions have caught up with me yet.  Now the brakes are on and those emotions are catching me up and about to take my feet from under me. Thankfully a previous career taught me no one is an island and I have to seek support from those who won't just say 'It will be okay.' if I am to stand any chance of walking this path. 

Thanks