Hi Everyone!
So, the waterworks finally opened up today and I've had a right good bubble to myself. I think everything over the last week seeing Jay as not himself especially as to how he was with our wee grandaughter at the weekend- which is just not him have just been building up and I've been managing to hold it back and today the floodgates just opened. I was trying to hide it from him and just broke right down in front of him and he was the one who said to me `we're going to get through this`/ He was going in for a nap (that just seems to be his favourite pastime for now) and asked me to bring him in some bottled water to have by the bed and that's when I broke down. He said physically he feels great, but mentally just feels like shit and if I remembered back when this treatment started the oncologist said he 'might` feel like shit (well than wasn't his words of course) and he `might` be sick and feel really tired and because he has been doing so well, this could be the side effects catching up with him. We see the oncologist again next week so Jay said he'll tell him what's been happening as they ask that anyway and it may just be a case of re-adjusting the doses again if they think they're too severe. I feel a little bit better now that I've got it out my system now anyway. I think we're all allowed a wee breakdown during this from time to time. Take Care.
Vicky xx
