Nervous

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I was diagnosed with bowel cancer last year. A large tumour I called Albert . He was removed along with lymph glands but my chemo was cancelled as I had a stroke , after my recent blood test I had a scan and they found growths in my abdomen and 1 in my neck . I've a biopsy on my neck on Thurs and for the first time I'm really scared not of the biopsy but of my body that seems to be betraying me and I can't share that I'm scared to my family , how do I keep positive ? Am I wrong not sharing about what's happening ?

court over 4 years ago

Hi Africa1

Welcome to the forum . I honestly don’t think you need to stay positive all the time especially when you are still in the middle of a diagnosis. Some people come here to strengthen a little and when the time is right for them can open up more to family .
However with the right support you can look at how you manage your treatment and your future well being and hopefully reduce some of the fear . If you click on my user name you can see my mum had a few bumps along the way to navigate through .

Macmillan has teamed up with Bupa for some counselling and a lot of people find that helpful coming to terms with more treatment . Our helpline staff would be more than happy to give you information.0808 808 0000. We also have telephone Buddies to allow people to speak in confidence to someone away from family .

From what you have written I don’t think your wrong possibly just not ready yet and that’s fine too .

Our family has seen how powerful chemotherapy can be in gaining stability and opening up other options through time . It’s a toe by toe journey but we are here to support you through that .

Take care ,

Court

Helpline Number 0808 808 0000

Former Member over 4 years ago

Hi Africa 1 .We all need to share our journey through this. Your family will see a difference in your they will ask you how you are getting on ? It's a swing and roundabouts thing .If you don't say eventually the asking stops .Then you start to think does no one cares.

All it takes is to say to one member of your family and that's it .It's amazing how much a difference it makes you feel .Everyone asked my husband how I was and he used to say She's fine even though I wasn't. Did not help him or me So tell someone please

This page is here for you ...Alaine

Africa1 over 4 years ago in reply to court

Thank you both of you , your words really help . I'm going to try to talk honestly with my family today , no jokes no hiding ,fingers crossed . Have a lovely Sunday xx

Africa1 over 4 years ago in reply to court

Hello Court . I Hope you had a peaceful Christmas . I've been hiding for a few days . My biopsy results are back and my support nurse says I'll be getting a phone call to see The Man by next Friday don't you get an urge to say " give me a clue "? I've been trying to ignore the elephant in the room ,walking helps and of course I've the perfect excuse to keep quiet, I'm "Waiting for clarity". Thank you to you and the others for your words they're like friends in my corner x