Hi, I am my sisters carer as she has rheumatoid Arthritis and Schizophrenia she has bowel cancer. It was treated for stage 3 with it being present in one lymph node. On finishing chemo for mop up at her 1st ct scan it was found to have spread to lungs. 3 in right and shadows on left. She is now stage 4. I am totally reliant on her financially as I gave up work to look after her. . We only have each other as we have no other family or friends.
I am terrified of being left on my own. What am I going to do? I can't stop thinking about it. I feel like there is this huge weight about to fall on me and I don't know how to cope. It feels like I'm just waiting for her to die and then my life ends to
Sorry to be so depressing but this is how I feel . I can't stop crying and I'm trying so hard not to think about it but it keeps popping into my head.
What if the chemo does not work it didn't last time.
Hi Teddy007 This is an awful position to find yourself in, and for your poor sister to be so ill 
What you need is some support and help and someone to talk to because although things look very bleak, there will be hope-there always will be. Can I suggest you look here ;
https://www.macmillan.org.uk/cancer-information-and-support/get-help
There is a phone number for support there, or you can email. You are at the RIGHT PLACE here and among friends , so keep us close at hand X
