Feeling very emotional

Hi Wenglish, I’m on the same chemo as you and had my 3rd last Saturday.  It hits us all differently and does have emotional disturbance listed as a side effect.  

One part of your treatment is complete but here you are having to face the next, why wouldn’t you be emotional? Allow yourself the space to feel sorry for yourself Sometimes things need to come out before we can move on and deal with the next thing  

Something I’ve found with this chemo is that every day is different.  This week I had huge pustules on my face - just what you want to wake up to - two days later I’m completely clear. One day at a time x

Thank you Lee_L I’m my own worst enemy getting frustrated because I feel down today and desperately trying not to take it out on my poor husband. I’m literally saying to myself take one day at a time and then getting mad with myself for feeling this way. Oh gosh poor you suffering from pustules but I’m glad they have cleared what a journey but need to remember why we are doing it. X

It's ok to give in to your emotions better than bottleing it up. My son has had a LAR operation and he's frustrated because he isn't getting better as soon as he thought he ought to. Your husband will understand your frustration but he is probably like me and not know what to do to try to make things better 

 Sending hugs and hope you feel a bit better soon xx

This is so normal. The mental walls you put up to "act like nothing is wrong" are cracking. It's too much pressure. I don't know if the chemo causes it or if the pressure just build naturally. 

I would wait for my husband to go to work and then cry my eyes out for an hour. I didn't want him to see how hard I was taking it. If I didn't do this, I was having meltdowns at the worst possible moments. Those emotions will find a way out whether you allow it or not. 

Find some private time and do whatever you need to do to get the emotion out. Cry, beat a pillow, scream, whatever works for you. Trust me, you will feel so much better. 

 Susan13 Rosie13 yes I guess I’m like a bottle of pop and those mental walls cracking makes so much sense especially as I struggle with that feeling of vulnerability. My husband does try to help but he is at a loss and I guess can’t fully understand what it is I’m experiencing. Thank you both I will allow myself that time to let those emotions surface xx

Good luck sending hugs xx