Bowel cancer CARERS, FAMILY & FRIENDS chat

Maggie it’s on my wrist but very subtle. No colour just a black outline. I’m not that keen on tattoos but love this one. I’m not brave at all if you had seen us quivering and giggling like a couple of school girls and immediately went to weatherspoons for a breakfast and asked for a glass of wine to be told they didn’t sell a alcohol til after 9am and it was 8.50 am. So settled for a cup of tea!! Hope this made you smile

Helen x

Vicky you really have had a hell of a lot to deal with just worried this will all catch up with you one day to first loose Jay and then not even have time to grieve this Cancer arrives with your sister that is soo cruel but this time it is very early stage but you really have not had time to catch your breath sending you hugs xxx

That is funny. It made me giggle. Very nice the tattoo is on your wrist.  Granddaughter got a tattoo which was 2 koi fish with black outlines as she loves her grandad and he kept koi until this year as you know they all went to koi heaven. Good on you Helen xx

Hi All!

Not been on for a couple of days after feeling `flat` but feeling a lot better the heartburn and indigestion have gone think its what I needed some time on my own. Worked wonders! Have the wee granddaughter for a `sleepover` tonight. Her mum and dad are away out to an engagement party. She is getting so big and it is an absolute joy that you can actually interact with her more and ask he what she wants to do or ask her to do something. Soon be her bedtime then I get some `me time` again. Hope you are all bearing up well and doing ok. Take Care

Vicky xx

Morning all yes I’ve been feeling flat. Our daughter has been amazing including me and and looking after me but I want her to get on with her life and her family and I dont want to be a burden. It makes me feel so sad I’m on my own while everyone else just gets on with their lives. I like time on my own but not all the time and sometimes the days are long.

anyway not long til we got to Spain for a couple of days with Paul and Sally to scatter ashes and wonder if this is what is making me feel this way as it’s another hurdle to get over. Any thoughts anyone??

Helen xxxx 

Hi Vicky and Helen. To be honest the weather is too hot for me. I have dreadful palpitations at the moment. Les only got up once yesterday and I felt really lonely.  I did not want to leave him so stayed in.  I feel very flat as my friend has gone to Whitby for a week. Well I suppose depressed is more like it. I have not been on either as just did not know what to say apart from making everyone feel as depressed as me and trying to hide it. I just wish I could settle myself but hey ho big girl pants on and carry on..

I hope everyone is coping as best as they can under the different circumstances.  Sending huge hugs to everyone maggie xx

Hi Maggie!

I don't think you could come on and make us feel anymore depressed than we are because that's what we all on here for to keep one another going and try to lift spirits and know that you are not alone in feeling how you do. Well my sleepover went well she is great actually goes to bed now when you tell her and woke up at a `sensible hour` of 8.30 a.m. this morning. William texted me earlier he and Nicole had `surfaced` at 11.30 so he said by the time he gets himself together he'll be here for Myla at 1.30 which is almost that but with William 1.30 can go to 2.30 etc etc so we'll see. Have a relaxing Sunday all. 

xx

Been to see the Great North Run today with Sally and then for Sunday lunch at her mother in laws to cheer me up a bit. Think we are all feeling a but bleugh

Helen x

Hi Vicky, Helen and everyone else. I was so positive but this last week has beeb awful. Les starts his 10th session if bloods are okay but has not been eating that much. I should be happy he is here but it is taking its toll on me and anything I say he disagrees. I am going to have to be more positive for him and try and support him best I can. 

glad you got out Helen . That would have made a big difference.  

huge to everyone. Love Maggie xx

Yes I get you Maggie!

You try to do your best for them as best as possible but they would tend to think you were nagging them. Anything and everything I thought would help Jay I'd be doing it but at times he like your Les would disagree with what I was trying to say or do for him and that in itself can be so deflating. He did at times though knew I meant well. Helen good for you in getting out for a while. I took the wee one out with me today on a dog walk. The dog needed walked and she was away running to get her shoes shouting `hurry up granny` but the `babies` (her dolls) and their wee buggy had to come too so off we went. She is so `road savvy` her mum and dad have been teaching her well she's the one telling me there are no cars before we cross the road. Smart little lady. Looks as though its not been a great week for us all in some way but that's something I think we can all take some comfort in that at least we've not been alone in how we have been feeling. Take Care All hope this week is a better one. 

xx