Bowel cancer carers, family and friends chat

Hi Jkee. How hard it must be looking after a puppy along with everything else. I know dogs can be a lovely comfort but puppies take up such a lot of time. They told Barry 6 months to 5 years so every day I wake up thinking what is going to happen today. I just wish they had said we will scan you once a year to see how things are and then he would have had the peace of mind that in xxxx months we have our appointment. How is Simon doing day to day?

Try taking one at night to calm you down as there are very addictive and usually only prescribed on a very short term basis. I have them and take one at night plus one quarter mirtazapine due to my weight. It has calmed me down a lot were I able to manage and drive if necessary. I really hope the hospital is cooker as nothing worse than a hot room.

well we have 2 fish left and trying to tell Les to get rid of it.  We have kept fish for 40 years. He said let me get used to the idea. It is me checking and daughter cleaned the filters.  It needs a total overhaul and the pond emptying to start again.  I said well we can get a large swim in pool.  I am fed up with the smell as I have just come back in from cleaning all the really smelly algae. When the old dog died in December I said no more as I could not cope with a puppy.  Also this is the first six months without a dog which I found hard but now too much to worry about with Les.  Men can be so stubborn. He won’t get rid of anything at all. You name it we have got it.

take care everyone hugs from Maggie xx

Yeah! I'm bitter about the chemo thing but not in the right frame of mind to pursue that at the minute. I don't even know if I would be strong enough to do it on my own. Yes its like a one of those rap songs the kids listened to a while ago `shuda cuda wuda` think it was called William played it one time and I asked who on earth is that?? me being `old` as he puts it. I'll let everything settle and once it's all over we'll see what happens if I would have something to argue.

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Morning everyone seems a bit down in the dumps today. Best to try not to dwell on the past as it only upsets you, I know it’s hard but just concentrate on the present and try to enjoy time with partners and husbands!! Think I’m turning into a counsellor lol.

Went out for meal lastnight with friends and Sally as my plus one - there was a good singer on and I had a few tears when certain songs came on but they were telling stories about her dad she had never heard before. We ended up dancing and had lots of wine so all in all a good first night out. Strange though coming home and in my own so had a cry in bed but up and out this morning food shopping ( I hate it)

Not so hot today and sun trying to come out so enjoy

Helen x

Simon doesn't tell me anything I have to keep asking are you ok how are are you ok he just says I'm happy to be alive he is trying to enjoy every hour he has like you say he says I could have 5 years why waste it but ours days are just at home but he can take puppy sometimes on a little walk which makes him happy although  tired I did not want the cockapoo puppy if i'm honest still don't but son said it would begood for dad but it's me doing the protecting of Simon of the wild puppy keep getting told will be better must admit before the dog everyday I was grieving for my old life and the life we should be having but not soo much now I have wiggled my head and thought stop wasted our time together no matter how short or long. I did get him in doctors a few weeks ago when he was coughing bad thought he had blood clots again and insisted they do a full blood count and xray told them I feel disgusted we have been left didn't say anything just stared at computer test came back boarder line live retest in a few weeks just trying to fight for him no idea what the blood test mean can't be that worried that was few weeks ago. Today he is quiet no idea what that means men don't talk to us but if he was on the phone to someone and i am not in room he would say just enjoy the small moments xxx

Morning Helen lovely to read your post glad you are still here if only you knew what your post mean to us keep going with the trips out if you can with Sally or friends coming home will always be the worst love to you xx

So pleased you were able to enjoy your evening, I know it is strange coming home to an empty house but people do say things get easier. Think we all need a good counsellor from time to time so please keep us on our toes. 
Pauline x

Why are men so difficult sometimes. When I went shopping last Barry said the bread we had was too thin, it was medium sliced so I got thick sliced. Just asked him if he wanted a sandwich for lunch and he said oh no you got thick bread. You have to laugh sometimes lol. My son suggested he sets himself small goals to try to get stronger like walking to the corner or going upstairs a couple of times during the day. Not working though unfortunately. He needs to want to do it for himself. 
Hope the puppy does not create too much havoc today. 
Pauline xxx

Agreed with Helen. Nice to have a different perspective xx

I could see two fish that is all we have. He is tired now and I have no idea how to start emptying the pond.  Got the pool out so I could put them but it needs emptying which takes about 10 hours e then wellies onto catch them. Oh the joys. Never again will i have another pond. He said how about a fish tank and of course I said no as it would be me cleaning it. That told him.

take care hugs to all Maggie xx