Hi all, thank you for accepting me. My husband has been diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer. At present I am not accepting it, it makes me feel sick, panicky, shaky etc. it was a complete shock. Anybody else in the same situation. Many thanks
Could not agree more about the quietness Jkee. I dislike intensely and it has been like this for years and I find it lonely. It is more lonely now he is not well and sleeps a lot. Today I feel like crying especially as I know if I have to do a poop test it will be positive. I would normally do one but as I said this started when we found out about his illness. I feel really sad today. Tomorrow is another day. I hope torry is relaxing.
I have been thinking about Torry hope she is ok I'm sure your mind is overthinking like mine is do the test I think worrying is worst when you have anxiety you said yourself it started from having the cancer news stress brings on all sorts that'swhat i am telling myself and wondering what drama do we have this week no positive thoughts things are going to be better this week remember your not alone we are here xx
Good to know it's just not me going through this and we are all in a similar situation. Just felt like swallowing a pack of tablets today and be done with it but I know I just do not have the courage to do it and thinking is as far as it gets. You're so right Maggie `same old, same old` just how I find things just now too. Groundhog Day everyday. I used to think that through lockdown with covid when nobody was going anywhere except to their sofa that was weirdly a more simple time though before all this had began. Think it has personally come back to get me now again and I'm re-living it. Used to joke about missing getting covid as I said before but never foresaw this! Take Care.
You're not sad Maggie! It's the things we need to resort to to stop us going insane. I've actually went back to playing `Candy Crush` on my phone. I play online slots too but know my limit on that and set my spending limits. I've tried to get back into my knitting again but I just lose interest in that again and can't concentrate and it gets put by again.
I do wish I had the energy and enthusiasm hubby has for planting etc. mind he likes weeds etc and as I said it is a mess. I dare not ask him just yet if I can get somebody in as I don’t want to upset him. I do like suduko though and that keeps me occupied. I go to bed early as that is my safe space and it is comfortable. I will have to put my big pants on and get on with it. Hugs all round Maggie xx
Jay is the same Jkee. He likes all those house renovation and reality programmes you know the ones people have X amount of £'s or $'s to spend getting a customised pool or house built things only some of us can dream of and he watches all the TV chefs Gordon Ramsey, Gino, James Martin etc. This is where he gets all his food ideas from and just watches `any other old rubbish`. I'm just happy with my soaps or a good film or drama if I can dig one up on Netflix or Amazon or Youtube. Yes sometimes it can get `too quiet` at times and the clock ticking away can sound really loud at times.
He used to get annoyed when I would watch TV in the bedroom because he would have been watching something I wasn't interested in and now the tables have turned if you like.
