Hi all, thank you for accepting me. My husband has been diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer. At present I am not accepting it, it makes me feel sick, panicky, shaky etc. it was a complete shock. Anybody else in the same situation. Many thanks
I am on my own for the first time this afternoon- just felt like I needed a bit of time on my own, had a good cry and have slept for a couple of hours. Just feels like I’m waiting for something. House is full of flowers and don’t want any more - wouldn’t it be nice if they came every two weeks spread out instead of all together. Don’t know if it makes people feel better sending you flowers. Cards are arriving too. Can’t face meeting people yet. Sally says how dare people carry on as if nothing has happened while we seem to be stuck on a hole we can’t get out from. Maybe this is normal Idon’t know.
Adverts are either cancer or cremation very cheery!!
son in laws birthday today but everything cancelled for time being. Lastnight our granddaughters say crying and cuddling me. It’s so sad how everyone is effected.
Amy. Hope your husbands pain is ok as you say everything is a worry and your mind goes into overdrive.
Distraught, sending you a big hug, too. I know what you mean about adverts...it's as if the radio or TV some how knows..or you are managing to busy yourself with something and then-bang- a reminder!
Torry, thank you, he isn't in any terrible pain and it may well be completely unrelated but the worry is just always there now whereas before, a minor pain would not have caused much concern at all!
Hi Helen. No not really had tummy pain all day. I would not appreciate flowers I would prefer donations. First time on your own and a good cry is good. I have felt like crying all day but haven’t as les would get upset. My thought ate with your family and heartfelt hugs to everyone trying to cope love Maggie xx
Hi Torry you have given me a look into my future and it scares me but You are amazing having lost my beautiful brother and parents what is happening is normal flowers people are all there at the start just the way but i can understand the flowers bit thinking no more.Sending you lots of love to you xx
Torry you also have given me an insight into future bit it will different for all of us. It does not bear thinking about as it frightens me. He gets very tired now and still won’t let me get anyone in to tidy up outside. The grass has grown too much and all the stiff. I suppose that is the least of my worries but I do like it at least tidy. He now has loads of plants growing in plant pots in the bungalow. Well moan over again for today. Friends are coming today who live quite a fair bit away and now after replanting into smaller pots in the room he is shattered. As always you are all in my thoughts lots of hugs Maggie xx
I think you have just got to let him do what he wants and go along with it if it makes him happy instead of just sitting mulling things over. I have been pottering in The garden for something to do but just had a torrential rainfall so back indoors staring at the blooming bed- thank good ness it all goes tomorrow. Paul’s grass hasn’t been cut this year as he can’t do anything and it’s been left so suppose I will have to try and do it when we get a decent day or pay someone to do it. Sally is poorly and think the last 12 weeks have caught up with her after being so strong for me and her dad. Seen a neighbour and just broken down again just can’t help it. Going to pop down to daughters later as the days are so long now.
hope you enjoy a bit time with your friends this afternoon and I’m thinking of you all
Hi torry i am letting him do as he wants and keeping quiet. Sorry to hear your daughter is not well. The days will be long until you get used to it or later join some groups. I think about You all every day. The friends who came her hubby has just had the operation from his bowel and seeing the oncologist on Wednesday this week to see if he needs treatment so all the talked about was the big c. That got me anxious but pleased he had someone to talk to and the other way around. Not long to wait until everything will be out of the house. Hope you are looking after yourself. As always hugs and love from Maggie xx
done a tip run getting rid of old garden stuff that we had planned on getting rid of. Changed ownership of car and car insurance etc- well Sally did!! Been for a walk along the river tonight had a few tears with the neighbours. Tea at Sallys and home now for bed as feel like I’m coming down with something - all aches and pains and shivery. Hope I sleep ok and feel Better tomorrow. take care ladies thinking of you all
Dear torry. It will all the stress of everything over the last few months. I hope you are not coming down with anything. I am pleased everything has gone and it is back to some sort of normal. Try not to do too much as it is very stressful for you at the moment. Going for a walk is good and having a good cry is also good. As usual all my heartfelt hugs to everyone love Maggie xx
