I have the feeling that my cancer is back

Sorry, I don't understand what you mean by," this time I’m not going to fight it, this time I’m going to let things keep going until the end" .

I was diagnosed in July 22 and have my post CT scan on Monday, I have scanxiety . Please stay positive. xx

Hi Martina

When did you have your bowel Op? An Ultra sound sometimes needs to press down hard on an area, & it could just be that that area could still be highly sensitive after invasive surgery - that means re-sectioning the bowel, which can produce scar tissue, that can take many months to properly heal.

Funny enough, 3 years down the line from my bowel resection, I still occasionally feel a little discomfort in the same area as my Op. when having a bowel movement.

Please don't jump to conclusions, it's far too early for you to do so.

Hi also Mel M I also had my last 6 mthly follow up CT scan last Saturday - & yes it's always a worrying time for us all, waiting for results!

I wish you both well with them!

Marianne xx

Hi Martina 

I’m confused your bio said that you were stage 2 no spread no ostomy. 
What’s happened ? 
Surely there’s lots to be done. I had an Ileostomy and lived life to the full. I’m now reversed and there may be more treatment needed. I will take whatever they offer 

The treatment for Bowel cancer is very individual and fine tuned to your needs 

Hopefully you can discus your results with your consultant. 
Thinking of you 

Hi Martina3

Well done for mindset that says you'll endure any pain and discomfort in order to get through their investigations.

Maybe a discussion with your specialist nurse or consultant could help them know your issues as it may help their treatnent plans and perhaps even offer pain relief or anaestetic during tests?

All the best for your scans

Oh thank you Crumpets

I read that wrong. 
Have good day all 

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It means some lives are not worth be living. Mine is one of them. If I could change my live for babebowel I’ll do it right now

Hi Martina3 

We’ve sent you a message offering some additional support which we hope you find helpful. I’m sure others will continue to share their personal experiences with you as waiting for further tests can be such a worrying time.

We are here to support our members the best we can so if you need any further support, please reach out to community@macmillan.org.uk.

Best wishes,

Megan
Macmillan's Online Community team

Why not read some peoples bios to see their various treatments and outcomes.they have really helped me in the past.all the best

Kath

Katz51 cancer has destroyed my relationship with my daughter. Shes 12 

my husband doesn’t ask me anymore the outcomes of my appointments. He even complaints why I spend so much time in the bathroom, seriously!!

I am unable to have sex, I used to exercise a lot, now all my body hurts. I’m having surgery in one foot because chemp has caused a neurona.

im alone in London, my family is abroad. The situation is coursing me so much stress that today I had a panic attack (twice) I thought I was having a hart attack. My husband left the house after my 1st one leaving me with my daughter. I was alone during the second one. My daughter doesn’t understand what’s happening so she’s horrible to me while I’m going through the PA.

plus the only thought of having surgery again. My body doesn’t tolerate mordinary, epidural or any other painkillers than paracetamol. That’s what I only was taking when after 5 days innICU with a 5.5 blod pressure, they realised that was making me ill. This was after the colon resection.

the reversal of the stoma was even worse. My veins colapse, morfin was not working, I had sepsis (luckily antibiotics worked) I was so much in pain that I was sacking.

Chemo in vein was not nice either. Some of the worse side effect I experience them. 

I went through all this with a very positively spirit, working and taking care of my family. But they don’t deserve it, plus I can’t go through that again, plus the thought of living with a stoma is unbearable.

I have my own experience.

Sorry you’re feeling this way 

Have you contacted your GP. I have found my medication has more or less stopped my panic attacks. Whilst I had an Ileostomy for thirteen months I became extremely depressed and after the doctor prescribed Citalopram and I found it contained serotonin I then realised that my body needed it and I was unable to get it from my diet. As Ileostomy and nuts don’t mix 

You have been reversed now so I assume that your BMs are okay but you could join the stoma support group here there’s a section on LARS if your having issues 

Do you think you need another Stoma? 
Have you had your consult?
It would be good to put up your diagnosis for others to give you feedback of their thoughts 

People here make their choices of treatment and quite often put them up for others to add their experiences 

Its up to you at the end of the day 

I didn’t want a bag I didn’t want the surgery! My husband’s friends dad didn’t have a colostomy it was his pride and self image he had a younger partner  That made me go for it with no regrets  I hated that Cancer and wanted it binned 

Keep talking if it helps