It's been a roller coaster the last few days my Aunt passed away and my cousin just won't tell me details of funeral keeps saying to be confirmed but everyone else knows.
Its my birthday today am I going to see another one, my poor daughter had a melt down at work today she teaches and her boss asked if I was OK and that was it the flood gates opened.
She put a post wishing me happy birthday on fb and she said "my gift ti you woukd be to make the cancer go away " bless her.
I'm off to see my oncologist Thursday hes taken my chemo right down to just 5fu and I'm thinking I'm feeling really well almost normal I don't even feel like I have stage 4 cancer is a big cloud about to defend over me ?
Sorry its woe is me time ill stop now.
Hi HazG
Oh your poor daughter . I think emotions get a bit overwhelming from time to time .
When my dad died it was three weeks before we got to bury him . Not sure if it is a local issue but apparently it’s a bit of a post covid one . It was a full week before we got a date from the undertaker. However it would be great if your cousin communicated that better as it’s clearly causing additional stress .
Your daughter clearly loves you very mum .
On a positive note , how fantastic you are feeling so well . It takes time to even learn as a relative that this can very much be a chronic condition so I guess it must be harder to come to terms with that when it’s happening to yourself .
You can tell your daughter I fully understand her sentiments. I rarely cry in public but today I got caught out too ! Much to my surprise! My mum Never noticed !
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Take care ,
Court
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Hi HazG
i wanted to send you a birthday hug. It’s probably not been the a very good one. What I do is postpone it for another date when I can get together with others or have a treat.
It’s really good news that you are tolerating the treatment well.
Im so sorry for your loss of your Aunt. It truly is a rollercoaster that your on. Maybe your cousin is on autopilot and has support to make arrangements and she’s concerned for you too. It’s a very emotional time
I want to send your daughter a hug too.
I’ll be thinking of you Thursday.
Take care x
Ann
Thank you what a journey this is my mom died of bowel cancer and this what made me cone to this site initially I didn't think I'd be asking for myself !
Anyway had a good sleep going to my horses today they take my mind of everything 
You are such a supportive group I don't post a lot but when I have a problem I know you will all make me see another perspective on my problem,thankyou for that.
Xxxxx
Thanks for birthday wishes 21 +vat again 
