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Hi Dowlas 

Welcome to the forum . You have come through a lot and many people here have reported similar situations to yourself . Also as things settle the emotions suddenly become more present .

Macmillan has teamed up with Bupa to offer six free counselling session . If you are at all interested our helpline can give you the details or even chat through the issues if that would be more helpful .

0808 808 0000

Some people also find an article written by a dr quite helpful so I will link it in too.

Others will be along to share from experience. You are not alone . 
Take care ,

Court 

https://www.workingwithcancer.co.uk/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf

You might find this an interesting read .

Court 

Thankyou

Hi Dowlas

Courts given great advice. 
There’s nothing wrong with you honestly I felt similar to you although I didn’t have chemo. I worried afterwards because I didn’t  get it. 
For me getting through the tests was frightening and I imagined that the cancer was within me and spreading. Once diagnosed I felt such relief that it was going in the bin! Then grateful and happy to be on the other side and thankful to the team that saved me. It was a rollercoaster ups and downs. Then the plateau hit. That’s the wall 

Also Christmas is an emotional time for us all anyway let alone the state of what’s going on the news! 

Be kind to you. You deserve it.

Sending you a hug xx

PS

I also found myself so down this time last year four months after my Ileostomy. I couldn’t get the serotonin in my diet as it’s mainly nuts. My GP gave me a 5mg tiny tablet to take. Game changer. Might be worth talking to someone 

Thank you for the reply 

Hi Dowlas.

Sorry to hear you're finding things hard. 

I'm about 3 months ahead of you re surgery and start of chemo and impact of not being able to work.... so if you want to private message about how things are, feel free to do so. You just need to click on my profile name at top of this post then select "friendship" option (found by clicking on + icon).

Your feelings are very natural and it is a bit of a rollercoaster. But there are lots of hands to hold here, you are not alone.

Hi Dowlas,

I have very similar timings diagnosis and chemo wise.

I can completely understand what you are feeling, I am feeling the same way.  I have had a few days of feeling relatively okay, but starting to dip again.  I don't think there is anything wrong with either of us, I think it's an awful scary time.

I have to say the comments that people made on a post I did the other day helped. I think it makes you feel less alone.

I hope you start to feel a little better x

Thanks for the reply, yeah the comments help , it’s a really uncertain time it still doesn’t seem real !!

I know what you mean, in the last few months my world has been turned upside down!