I'm sinking

Sending you a virtual hug  

be a pain in the ass of your GP, oncologist, surgeon and specialist if necessary until you have a plan, it gives peace of mind to have one

I will get Macmillan to contact you and give you some support . 
Hold on tight. 

court 

Hi Miss T

Im sorry that you have no plan. I found that the hardest part. 
I hope that you have had some support from MacMillan, well done Court you’re a Star 

I just wanted to say that I couldn’t eat either so I had two meal supplement drinks a day with three small meals/snacks. High protein. That really gave me the boost I needed to exercise. 
sending you a hug 

Thank you Martina3, its greatly appreciated x

Thanks Court, I feel a little better,but its not knowing that isn't helping, qnd those around me don't want to "go deep", I take an 87 Yr old lady out on Wednesdays, she was my great aunts best friend, they did everything together, lived next door to each other, ivspent most of my weekends and school holidays with them, she's the only one that's able to give me a chance to talk freely, we went on a 40 mile drive in the countryside today, my anubtche Joan worked in a nursing home, I grew up there helping, and went on to be a carer, she's able to make me laugh, cry and kick my backside if need be. But support on here helps too.  

Thank you Artsie Ann, I'd feel better knowing what my plan is, but feel like I'm in limbo x

I found waiting for the treatment plan the hardest. The tests were tick boxes. The last endoscopy was on a Monday and I was told they wouldn’t have all the team to discuss my case for two weeks as the oncologist wasn’t there. That made my mind whirl. After a few days of my mind on overdrive  I phoned my colorectal nurse Anneka and said that I wanted to book a holiday and wondered if she had any advice 
She told me what was in store and gave me their website to get the info.
Although I was stunned I knew what to read up on and not to book a holiday. Truth be told I wasn’t going on holiday. I was in limbo and needed to know 

I felt so much better knowing that. You could phone your colorectal nurse again and ask if your consultant is back and they’ve had their MDT as you would like a holiday.  
It worked for me 

Take care 

My consultant was in the hospital last Tuesday, and was away for 2 weeks, I don't know if this is the 1st week or not, I did talk to my colorectal nurse on Monday, Faye was very good, but I'm in limbo until the people at Manchester get back to us, my file was sent last Tuesday, so a week and a day ago, I don't know if they're calling me, writing to me or just going back to the hospital near me. I'm a but annoyed, qs out local hospital has just had q brand spanking new Christine's unit built,  but the one piece of equipment that they need to look at how far the tumor is through the wall of the bowel, they haven't got, it's an ultrasound with probably some sort of problem, that the people in Manchester have. My GPS are booked up for weeks, I don't know who or where to turn, I'm trying to stop Steve from sinking into a black hole, and trying to reassure my hypochondriac sister that she probably hasn't got cancer, though she's been diagnosed with irritable bowel disease, and had a colonoscopy not long ago. I don't know what to do, think, or where to turn, I just want to know when something will happen, I was 2ith my fiends through her journey with cancer, though hers was so invasive, and everywhere, she smoke 60 a day for 45 years, I know when they said about chemo giving her an extra few months, she only had 2 sessions, then died the say before her 3rd, it knocked her around alot I doubt she'd have gone for the 3rd session anyway. My small islands getting smaller. But people on here have been so good, qnd I know many have their own struggles, I feel so bad when I'm here whinging, when others are clearly worse off than me.

I had the same. Colonoscopy found the polyp. Endoscopy with ultra sound photos and measurements taken to find out exactly which operation was appropriate. 
I hope that you have some news soon You can vent here if it helps. 
Take care 

This is where you can release all those pent up emotions . You are not alone. Sending a virtual hug to you.