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Hi NellyB, I really understand how you feel, I don’t trust my body. And because people think the cancer is gone you should be back to normal. I’ve really done myself in with the googling. I just want to do this chemo and get some clear scans. Take care Nelly, I have changed, I just want feel motivated again. Sending hugs xx

Oh Nelly , don’t start me on googling . I have to clear my search history every day . It’s a curse . Chemo will be over before you know it , just be kind to yourself . It’s hard but you can do it ….. you will do it . I remember my oldest daughter looking me in the eyes when I was going through my second course of chemo . I was crying and said I can’t do this . She said “ you can mum and you will “ I knew then I had to do not just for me but for my children . It’s amazing where you find the strength but you will . Big hug to you XX

Hi Nelly, it’s just that this bit I read about the peritoneal (I think that what it is) I’m too scared to speak to my oncologist, it just looks bleak. I know that it’s been said that they got all the cancer, I’m assuming it meant from there as well. I had a good talk to a Macmillan nurse today, he was amazing. I feel like I’m torturing myself with this google.I know how you feel, my second cycle was not as good as the first. I don’t get it my gp didn’t tell me how serious this spread is. Just the adjuvant cancer is mopping up. I hope when the oncologist rings me about my 3rd round of chemo I must get the courage up and ask her/him. I think every time I go to google something I’ll do a meditation instead and hopefully float to my next round of chemo instead of just feel stuck. Take care sending hugs xx

Hi please stay away from Google, when I was first diagnosed in 2018 I googled everything and literally had myself dead and buried,  so I don't Google anything to do with the big C. Be kind to yourself and speak to your team. Take care X

I second that. I’ve just deleted a huge essay on the subject because I thought I would bore you all. 
Please stay off Google 

Shelly 
How are you? 

Thank you Nelly B, Moi2, Artsie. Thank you I looked at my letter and it is not the peritoneal. It extramural invasion perinerural and intramural venous invasion. I know I should’ve spoke to someone. Thank you all for your replies I really do appreciate it. After being told all cancer out and mop up . Sending hugs xx

Hi everyone sorry finding it very hard to stay awake at times. I'm ok thankyou artsie up and down. But I agree with Google when I was first diagnosed on the 12 Jan I spent hours on Google till I just felt no hope and burst into tears on my doctor he made me promise to stay away now I don't touch Google when it comes to this. Take care everyone 

Shelly

Hi Shelly , just go with your body , stay in bed if you have to . I slept a lot when I was going through chemo . I remember I spent all of Christmas 2020 sleeping . I remember someone saying ( I think it was in this group ) it’s another world of tired . I got what he meant for sure ,

take care me dear XX

Hi nellyb I totally understand what you mean by totally different tired. 

You take care x