Husband rectal cancer

My husband was diagnosed with stage 4 rectal cancer in Sept 2019, it was downgraded to stage 3 after scans confirmed liver was only cysts, 1 stoma surgery, chemo, radiotherapy complete and positive of beating it, unfortunately after all this it was present in lungs and even then hope was that would beat it with more chemo. We've had the diagnosis of stage 4 again back in July after discovery from surgery to remove tumour that had moved into lymph nodes and also some was left that couldn't be removed. No more able to be done and we are palliative care.

This is hard with 2 young teenage children who have seen cancer in both grandparents and myself, coming out the other side so far now witnessing their dad deteriorate so much. He wants to be at home with us so they see if daily. I've been told to be at home since September with him he wanted to see Xmas and we've acheieved that but today the hospice nurse expressed thought that were looking at 2 weeks......

Don't know why but feel I need to speak on here I'm heartbroken he's 54 and been with me for 27 years this year would be our 20th anniversary but we're unlikely to see it. Just want his pain to end but on the same thing don't want to lose him.

Cancer is so cruel.

*update* sadly we lost my husband yesterday. He got to see Xmas and new year with us which was his goal. And now he is no longer suffering. 

The kids and I have lost a very special man.