Met the oncologist about chemo today

Oh Nelly I really empathize with you . Struggling with anxiety like I know you do you ( like me ) always hook onto the negatives and wash over the positives . The great news is your cancer free . Chemo is just a reassurance . I had 3 months after my resection , which was 4 infusions followed by 2 weeks of tablets after each one . If your like me I’ve always got that worry that it might come back but I hope that slowly disappears with time . Your daughter sounds amazing . If you still have questions maybe she could give them a ring and ask for reassurance about things . I didn’t have a pic line fitted but if I had to go through it again I would have one as my arm got quite sore. I really hope I’ve helped a bit . Sending loads of love , Nelly B XX

Hi Nelly, thank you for replying. They will only put in a pic or port if I have the two infusions. I wish I didn’t have a choice and they just told me what to do. You have helped, thank you..I had to ask him what I was. My last scans came back clear apart from the bit on my colon.I asked about scans because I was getting them every 3 months, my  nurse said they will scan me whist on chemo, is that what they did with you? Has your anxiety calmed down ? Sorry to many questions. Sending loads of love back to you xx

i also had oncologist meeting today ( had op 13/11)

om having 4 cycles 3 months with IV and tablets. 

will update of you like and let you know how o get on , may help with your decision ??

kimd regards

Linda

Ask away . Because a lymph node was effected I had the chemo . I felt quite poorly with it which sent my anxiety through the roof . I was on antidepressants which hadn’t really kicked in properly so added to it all . I just felt I was completely loosing control . The lovely colorectal nurse put me in touch with the cancer psychologist but because I felt so poorly I didn’t speak to her until after my treatment. I didn’t have any check ups or scans until 8 months after chemo which really freaked me out because all sorts was going through my head . I had about 6 sessions with psychologist which did help . It’s now been almost a year since treatment has finished and all is clear . Unfortunately my anxiety got worse for a while . It was a bit like post traumatic stress disorder. But now I’m very slowly getting better . I still get panic attacks but they are getting less and I’m feeling stronger . If I had to go through it all again knowing what I know now I think I would of coped better . I think anxiety made me feel worse . I really wish I could take anxiety away from you I really do , it’s horrible when your head takes over . Sending a gentle hug XX

Hi L16, thank you for replying, that would be very helpful. Did you get a choice? Or they just said what one they was going to give you. Hope you do well, take care and sending hugs xx

Hi Nelly I did reply to you but it doesn’t seem to have come up. Thank you I really appreciate your replies, I know the chemo will start sometime in January, I have to go in for another appointment on the 5 th so I should know then. So glad you are a year clear. It must have been hard for you to wait 8 months for a scan. I’m just two months past and need another one. Wish we could have one by the door and get scanned everyday t o put our mind at rest. Sending you big hugs and thank you once again for your  help. Nelly 55 xx

Hi Nelly I have an appointment with the cancer psychologist on the 31st December over the phone. Hope I can get a bit of positively xx

Hi no there was no choice, given to me which in some respects is easier. 

will keep u posted 

Thank you L16, I wish they hadn’t given me a choice. I did put it back to them and said I wanted to leave it in their hands as I know nothing about chemo except for the tablets I had last year. But they gave me the information anyway. I send all the best wishes as you go through the chemo. Do you know when you start? My op was on the 19/11.thank you I would be glad if you kept me posted xx

My op was 13/11 and i’m starting chemo tomorrow. will keep you posted warts and all as preparation is key x