Starting to feel wellish but anger is now affecting me

I am really pleased you have spoken up about how you feel ! It’s definitely not a rant just a deeply spoken truth and very meaningful !

Maybe it is all coming to the point where you actually want to address what’s concerning you or how you feel ! If you do want any assistance with that if you phone the helpline they can point you in the direction of local resources or counselling ! Others have found it helpful. 0808 808 0000 . 

Hopefully others are able to join in as it comes up here a lot and just like you people are quite surprised at the strength of their feelings and surprised at the timing !

Take care ,

Court 

Oh, , you are so not the only one!!!! You are human, and I know I've been, and still have, phases where I go through this. So please rant on here, you have to find a release. If you find it doesn't work, than as court says, ring the helpline. This stuff makes it very difficult to go it alone, and 'strangers'  might be easier. Though you might well find a kindred spirit or 3 to rant to! It helps! The thing with this community we all know that it could be us, or has been us, so there is no blame or guilt about letting off steam.

Please take care, (((hugs)))

Hi . No you’re definately in the right place to rant. I think we all underestimate how cancer messes with our emotions and after it’s all over and the hospital visits start to dwindle you feel a bit uncertain about your future. You wonder if it’s going to come back then think that you should be doing something ‘meaningful’ with your life like driving round the world in a Fiat uno! Then there’s the ‘why me’ and ‘what happens if…..’ It’s tempting to put your life on hold until you reach the next clear scan or maybe another year after that just in case…..and before you know it you’re 2,3,4 years clear and thinking ‘oh if I’d known that I’d have moved house, bought a boat, driven round the world in a fiat uno’ earlier. 
If you want to get a job then do - it could just be something part-time or voluntary - or start a new hobby/project at home? Have you had a look at the life after cancer board? They have some good posts on there too?

https://community.macmillan.org.uk/cancer_experiences/life-after-cancer-forum

This paper is also good and something you can read at different stages of your recovery 

www.workingwithcancer.co.uk/.../After-the-treatment-finishes-then-what.pdf

Please keep posting - the boards here for all aspects of treatment and we’ll be happy to listen and maybe have a good rant with you too!

Take care

Karen x

ps love Chris Kamara!