hi..I'm new to this group and unsure about sharing this as some of you I suspect will question my moral choices.
In December I separated from my husband after 20 years and by chance reconnected with my first love after 37 years..however he is married and lives in a different country. He and his wife lead separate lives and since his operations for colon cancer in 2015 and chemo in 2016 she told him she finds him repulsive as he had a colostomy bag and scars.
He had an oncology appointment in July but based on tests done in January because of covid and he told me everything was clear then but bloodtests weren't done.
He has just told me that one of his symptoms came back 2 days ago but won't tell me which.
I know I am being stupid and maybe naive and am aware that I may be being played but I really don't think he is doing this but only a week ago we were discussing our future where he said he wanted me to live with him and wants to look after me (I have been disabled for 23 years).
Now I am devastated and just need some moral support from somewhere. Hoping I can get some here.
