Hello Everyone
I went for a colonoscopy two days ago. This followed 2 x FIT tesr one at 377 ug and next at 400g - gp said might settle down on its own to repear the test in a fortnight. Blood tests all in range - very slightly anemic.
Went for colonoscopy hoping it be a polyp and assuming any fear I had was irrational if blood tesrs all ok. Wrong could see on screen mutant mass and lost it. I asked what is that! Recoiling, terrified. In hindsight wish hadnt looked at the screen... looked raw and bad.
The person doing scan said have you only just had symptoms cos looks to have been there a while (yes is the answer- only just get symptoms). Sre say looks 'endoscoply malignant' and couldnt complete the scan said it is strangling the area. Then they say will be do biopsy, arrange another scan to see if spread.
Sent home dont know if I am dying or not. Donr know anything much - and wish had not have been told half a story because of the distress half knowing is causing.
It looked mutabnt - i could not believe it in my body and I not know. Its 600mm - 'giant' I read. Frightened extra more cos she say looks to have been there a while and was surprised no earlier symptoms. I am terrified. For my children particularly. Not knowing and being given crumbs of information feels a bit 'much'. Likely have cancer is what I am left with. Terrified. Next scan on wednesday. MDT on the friday next week. I want ro know if treatable but terrified it isnt. How does a person manage that anxiety? Tips? I am quite shocked they show you it, tell you it probably is nasty and send you home with a panflet to stew on it. Biopsy and scan outstanding. Is that usual way people told?
