Starting Chemo Thursday, feeling scared

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Hi everyone,

I’m not usually one to post personal things, but I’m finding myself needing to share and hopefully connect with others who’ve been through something similar.

I’ve been diagnosed with colon cancer, and unfortunately, it’s spread to my liver. It’s been a whirlwind of tests, scans, and conversations I never imagined having at the age of 25 and with my own young family — and now I’m set to start chemotherapy this Thursday.

To be honest, I’m scared. I don’t know what to expect, how I’ll feel, or how this is all going to play out. I keep trying to stay strong, but the fear creeps in — of the unknown, of side effects, of how this will impact my life and the people I love.

If anyone here has been through chemo or is going through something similar, I’d really appreciate hearing your experiences, tips, or even just some words of encouragement. Right now, it would mean a lot just to know I’m not alone.

Thanks for reading.

  • Hi it’s only natural to feel scared.im going through treatment for breast cancer at the moment. Everyone is different so you may have different side affects or non. I’ve just finished 9 weeks of EC which was every 3 weeks. I was anxious every time it came around, first one they had to reduce the dose as had too many side affects. Every treatment seemed to be different for me. Next week I start a weekly treatment of Paclitaxel and I’m nervous about that as it’s a different treatment drug, the fear is still there.

    my tip is get some sports drinks and have one during the day of chemotherapy treatment as it can keep your sodium levels up, keep fluids up with water too. Get some soups in as it can affect your appetite, soup is easier to digest if you’re not up to eating much.

    Good luck with everything and try not to worry too much I know it’s easier said than done, take plenty of rest especially the first few days after treatment. Wish you well and a speedy recovery. Sue x

  • Hi   so sorry you are dealing with this at such a yoing age. You certainly aren't alone. I have just finished 4 cycles of Capox and found it do able. I appreciate with young children it's hard as you don't get any down time. 

    What chemo are you due to have?

    Sending a hug xx

  • Hi  so sorry you are going through this at 25! 
    my OH has just finished 4 rounds of CAPOX after being diagnosed with bowel cancer. We have found this forum so helpful and supportive so please do use it. The treatments affect everyone differently but be assured any side effects do pass. Our coping mechanism has been to take it One day at a time. 
    what chemo are you going to be on? 
    sending big hugs 

    Bx 

  • Hi   -awful for you, to be facing this at such a young age. I am an old codger, so in some ways I 'expect' things to go wrong, but as a young person you don't expect this.

    Many reasons to be very optimistic! Firstly, you are here, you are braced to face what needs doing,you have been diagnosed and experts-because those people really are experts- have already assessed whats best to fix you. Because fixing you is what we all care about. As the others have asked-what chemo regime will you be on? We've all been through chemo.

    Lean on us if you feel you want to- we have big shoulders here Kissing heart

  • Hi Sue, 

    thank you for your reply. And thank you also for the tips, I think my biggest fear is that anything could happen and the side effects are so unpredictable. 

    I hope your treatment goes well aswellHeart

  • Thank you for your reply, I’m due to start FOLFOX, it’s just such a difficult time and I think I’m still processing the diagnosis aswell which has been difficult too

  • Thank you for your reply, I definitely think taking each day as it comes is the best thing to do - which for me will be hard as I’m such a planner! I’m due to start FOLFOX. 

  • Thank you so much, what a incredible reply, it’s always nice to have support from people who have been through it, my family have been amazing but it’s difficult because they don’t truly understand how I’m feeling, but neither do I really! I’m due to start FOLFOX, it’s just such a big thing happening and I have 0 control over anything which is scary 

  •  Not had experience of FOLFOX but I’m sure there will be plenty of people on here who have. 
    re planning … it goes out the window ! I’m a planner too and I’ve had to learn to go with the flow since my OH’s diagnosis. 

  • Yeah I think I’m also going to have to learn, I’m also struggling on how to explain what’s going on to my children, my youngest is 2 so she wouldn’t understand much we tell her anyway, but my son is 6, and at the minute all he knows is mummys belly is abit poorly so I need to have some medicine at the hospital to help me feel better