Panic Attack!!

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Hi Everyone!

Something happened last night which was really scary for me. I believe I was having a panic attack. My anxiety is just through the roof just now and after dinner last night (which Jay made again!) I was sitting and just felt I could not breathe. I felt as though I was going to collapse, and poor Jay could do nothing to help me if I did fall but I managed to sit back on the couch, so I was ok and finally got myself composed. I was prescribed a short course of Diazepam two weeks ago from the GP and they finished last week so got on to the GP again this morning to find out if I could get another course but after waiting almost half an hour to get through, I was told there were no appointments for today and that I would need to call back tomorrow morning, or it would be a week today. So, I was really stressed and decided to phone NHS24 Scotland (111) and quite pleased that I did because they are going to put me on to a programme where someone will phone me every so often just to check in that I'm ok. I have my appointment with the nurse tomorrow to get the results of my blood tests I had taken last week and then on Thursday Jay sees the oncologist again to find out if he will be able to be put on a new regime of chemotherapy. At the minute my stomach is still doing cartwheels backflips front flips you name it. Jay didn't go fo a nap at all yesterday which is another positive but went back to bed again this morning, so it seems that for every positive, there is a negative. See how this wee programme works out with NHS24 and of course I still have this to come on to if I feel I need to vent and speak to anyone.

Vicky

Cecile over 2 years ago

Hi Vicky,

Hopefully you can get those panic attack under control! My husband had one the day I was told I had lung metastases and was looking at 2-3 years max, which was very scary! Fortunately he hasn't had any since and we've been getting on with things. Maybe it's not a bad thing if Jay can have a little nap everyday? I know I need to have my rest in order to keep going - I had a busy day catching up with friends on Saturday while still pumping chemo which resulted in a day in bed on Sunday so I feel a daily nap is the way to go for me at the moment. Make sure you take care of yourself!

Cecile x

PattyK over 2 years ago in reply to Cecile

Thanks Cecile!

It's just that I'm just not used to seeing him as he is just now. He has never been one for daytime naps and now it seems he's always in bed. I used to nag him about going to bed for a nap during the day when he used to fall asleep on the couch and he used to shrug it off. When he got up out of bed in the morning that was him until he went to bed at night. Before he retired though and still worked, he more or less worked 24/7 and would sleep in his van if he wanted a nap and sometimes the whole night if he was working nightshifts. His sleep patterns are all over the place as well just now. He will go to bed at night between 11-12 then maybe up again about 2a.m. if he needs the loo and he'll sit up for a while then come back into bed. I'm apparently terrible snorer and this wakes him as well he says. It's not very practical for me to sleep in another room as we only have a put u up bed and it's ok for a night or so but not a permanent fix. I'm always apologising to him for it and I feel really bad about it. It's just a vicious circle just now.

Vicky x