Hello everyone
I'm Ali, 52 year old awesome woman living in Reading, UK. After having some symptoms that I'd put down to a bout of food poisoning in mid-July and/or food poisoning and/or a shitty time at work - I had a colonoscopy on 19 October where they found Terry the Tumor! It was confirmed as cancer and last week, that it was in my nearby lymph nodes.
I've got my CT scan tomorrow to help them workout the measurements for my radiation and will be on that winning formula of chemo and radiation - starting treatment in 3 weeks ish....
I feel healthy - I mean right now it feels like I've got a hot walnut up my butt - not so bad.
Unfortunately, yesterday we said farewell to our beloved dog, Dyson and well it's fair to say it's feeling like a super shitty year. I'm trying desperately not to let the grief derail me - as I know that a strong and positive mindset will help me - along with my husband, family, friends and now you lovely lot, oh and Buddy (our lovely lab) And Dyson is at peace now and wouldn't want us crying for days on end...(Currently hourly!)
Anyway that's enough about me! Looking forward to being an active and supportive member of this community - knowledge is power and together we are stronger.
Much love and light to you all!
Alikat
How you getting Trying to be strong ? I hope everything is going to plan.
And thanks for reaching out with the warm welcome it's so appreciated.
I'm feeling stronger today - staying hydrated and staying positive. The planning session made it all very real. I've ordered by sitz bath and I'm going to order myself some hospital wear - so it makes it easy to get dressed everyday but any other advice most welcome.
Good luck - you're more than half way through!!!
Alikat x
It's now Terry the Tumor and the Nodes - cheeky sods they are!!!
I'm trying to stay as positive as possible but the planning session made it all very real and combined with saying farewell to Dyson it was all too much. I tend to burst into tears for 30 seconds and then recover.. I think that Terry and the Nodes thrive off anxiety and stress as well as sugar.... Radiotherapy/Chemotherapy and Positivity at the winning formula - however that's easy to write and not necessarily easy to do - especially as I've yet to actually get started!
We purchased Buddy a new toy and he's keeping it close and in 3 days it hasn't got a single tear!
The "sitz bath" has been ordered!
Thanks again for the advice and give your pooch a biscuit from me x
Mrs Badass
You are probably avoiding a huge build-up of emotion so letting it out little and often is absolutely fine. There are many of us who had node involvement and they zap those during radiotherapy too - it's tough but doable and is very effective so keep looking towards a cancer-free future.
We lost our first dog on the road (still hurts to talk about it) six years ago and my daughter's dog and our pooch were inseparable. My daughter's dog completely lost her spirit for a long time, we would cry all over again seeing her look for Phoebe, sigh loudly and flop down with large sad dark eyes.
I love the pictures of your dogs.
Irene xx
Hi, yes I am half way today, it certainly has had its rough days, especially with the chemo in the first week, and not looking forward to the return of it in another week and a half. But yes we can do this and it will be worth it in the end. Its okay to be emotional, I had one day last week when I spent the whole day crying and I actually felt better afterwards. I needed to let out and I just didn't realize it at the time. One thing I have learnt so far is what I may want in my head is not what my body will let me do. I wanted to return to my part time job at a primary school but unfortunately I couldn't due to the side effects. I will return in 2025 much healthier and fitter. Good luck with your treatment and just take one day at a time.
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