My partner has just hit the point of no more treatment, he's relatively functional at the moment but I'm very aware that this time is precious and very limited. We have been together less that a year, he started becoming ill less than 6 months ago. We live in different towns and I also have young children. And now we're in lockdown and I am really struggling with the idea that after rarely being apart for more than a couple of days at a time since July that whether I get to see him again at all is completely out of my hands. I am aware that it is worse for him as he is also losing the opportunity to do things that mean a lot to him and make the most of the time left. He has a carer with him, and there is no question he is better off and happier being in his own home at this point. I shouldn't go there and if I did I would be making the choice to then be separated from my children for the duration of the lockdown, however long that may turn out to be. I know there are phones and video calls and all the rest but I really want to be with him. If time wasn't so precious, there wouldn't be any question at all that I would be with my children. There's no answer to any of this, I know what I have to do, but it just feels so bloody unfair right now.
