Hello,
I’m not one to really speak to people about how I’m feeling or about personal things going on.
This year so far I have lost 2 close family members to different cancers and one only just diagnosed but is terminal. It sounds awful to compare but I am absolutely devastated to hear of the most recent family member. This person has been my rock my whole life and I really am not sure how I will manage life without them. I cherish every memory and think how lucky I am to have had them I’my life. All I want for anyone I know is to have a long beautiful and pain free life. Life can be cruel. Life should be so much longer for so many. The diagnosis is terminal with no real indication of how long and I can’t seem to process it. Not at all. I can sit and think about it and get upset but I can’t seem to believe it’s real or process what will happen. It makes me feel so selfish to to have these thoughts but I get so angry that the people I love the most won’t see my child grow up or see me get married one day. As many many people know it’s such a strange thing to try and figure out and I can’t imagine how the person who is poorly is coping inside. I just wondered if anyone has any advice or words to help me to understand what’s happening and how I will cope. Also how I can help my loved one! I know it’s always a personal experience but I seem to be stood at a dead end of not knowing what to do or how to feel. Thank you for anyone who takes the time to read this and I’m sorry it’s so long winded!
Hi Promise and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I’m Anne, one of the Community Champions here on the Online Community, and I'm sorry to read how many people in your life have been touched by cancer.
The online community is divided into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the supporting someone with incurable cancer group as you'll then connect directly with others who have a loved one with a terminal diagnosis. It's a safe place to discuss your emotions about the prospect of losing your loved one, as well as practical issues.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
Sending virtual ((hugs))
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
