Hi, I've no idea if I'm in the right place. I feel very lost at the moment
Bit of background - I've been having check ups for breast lumps for a few months in my left breast. All has been coming back OK and they've just been monitoring. Found some in my right breast and was sent for an ultrasound yesterday. The consultant doing the scan was lovely, asked if it could be bruising but I've not had any trauma I can recall - surely if it's enough to cause lumps I'd remember or have some external marks? Anyway, she then said she wasn't pleased, sent me for a mammogram there and then, did 3 biopsies - one big lump, 1 very enlarged lymph node and another possible node I think she said that was a smaller lump than the others but shown up on scans. Asked me to call my partner back to come with me for a follow up after with a surgeon as "4 ears are better than 2." got my partner back and went to the surgeon - who turns out to be the original Dr I've been seeing for my lumps. He hadn't got the report sent to him from the consultant (I'm sure she said she was a consultant) and was quite positive, said it was a suspicious lump but he's glad they've biopsied it and he'll see me in his clinic next Thurs. He gave no indication it might be bad news but he didn't rule it out either - just said it would be treatable if it is the big c.
Here's my confusion - the lady doing the scans got quote emotional. I asked her the likelihood that it was bruising and said it's unlikely, especially with the size of my lymph node. She said she wasn't happy at all with the lumps, she rated them 3/4? Apparently 4 is suspicious? I'm not sure, it's all a bit of a blur now. I saw the main lump on ultrasound and mammogram scan - seemed a fair size with wobbly edges. Lymph node in ultrasound seemed a similar size, looked candy cane shaped at one point. I've no idea what I was looking at tbh. What did worry me was I asked her, in her professional opinion, the likelihood that this was cancer and she cried and held my hand. She did apologise and explain she's also had breast cancer and I'm not sure that she was just finding it all triggering or if she knows something. She said I'm so young and have children. She did also make comments about having ct scans and finding the extent of the disease. Obviously going for tests in lumps is stressful and worrisome but the whole experience has me thinking I've got an almost certain diagnosis. Then again, the surgeon was much more relaxed and had no real comments? But as I said, he mentioned something about the report not coming through. Has anyone experienced similar/got any thoughts/just a hand to hold? I'm just so stressed and panicked and feel lost and confused.
Thanks for reading x
