Hello.
I found a lump on 15th March and contacted the GP asap who referred me on a 2 week wait. I visited the Breast clinic on 1st April and had 2 mammograms, an ultrasound, biopsies and clips inserted. They told me there and then they could see cancer in the breast and 3 of my lymph nodes. I have a PET scan tomorrow to see if it has spread any further. I have an appointment a week today to find out the results and what the next steps are.
I feel so scared right now. I’m scared that it has spread further. Every time I get an ache or pain I wonder if it’s spread there. I’ve had a pain in my shoulder and wonder if that’s a sign it has spread. Both my parents died of cancer and seemed to have pain in one of their shoulders in the last few months before they passed away.
In the first couple of days after the diagnosis I was quite positive and making lists, etc, of things I would need to do before treatment but as the days pass I can’t help but dwell on what if I’ve only got a short time left and they will say treatment won’t help.
To the outside world everyone thinks I’m handing it really well but in my head I’m really struggling.
I’m hoping once I have my appointment next week and I know what the next steps are I will be able to cope better.
Hi CatMum and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I’m Anne, one of the Community Champions here on the Online Community, and I was diagnosed with breast cancer a few years ago so I understand very well how every twinge has you worrying.
The online community is divided into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the breast cancer group as you'll then connect directly with others who have been where you are now.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
Wishing you all the best
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