Hello.
I found a lump on 15th March and contacted the GP asap who referred me on a 2 week wait. I visited the Breast clinic on 1st April and had 2 mammograms, an ultrasound, biopsies and clips inserted. They told me there and then they could see cancer in the breast and 3 of my lymph nodes. I have a PET scan tomorrow to see if it has spread any further. I have an appointment a week today to find out the results and what the next steps are.
I feel so scared right now. I’m scared that it has spread further. Every time I get an ache or pain I wonder if it’s spread there. I’ve had a pain in my shoulder and wonder if that’s a sign it has spread. Both my parents died of cancer and seemed to have pain in one of their shoulders in the last few months before they passed away.
In the first couple of days after the diagnosis I was quite positive and making lists, etc, of things I would need to do before treatment but as the days pass I can’t help but dwell on what if I’ve only got a short time left and they will say treatment won’t help.
To the outside world everyone thinks I’m handing it really well but in my head I’m really struggling.
I’m hoping once I have my appointment next week and I know what the next steps are I will be able to cope better.
